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More Paradise Vibrations... and Psychic Self Protection

I'm saturated in the yum yum of Santa Barbara! It is night time and I am sitting by the fireplace in my room at an inn a block from the ocean. Life is wonderful.

Started my day off with a long walk, strolling through the tides by the ocean, avoiding rocks and the occasional jellyfish. Birds, sand, clean breezes, warm sunshine on my skin, the sensation of cool water on my ankles. I breathed deeply, feeling into everything around me. After 40 minutes in one direction, I turned around and came back, doing an Orin Divine Will meditation on the way back, anchoring Higher Mind into my consciousness with lightbeing transmissions. I was in the material world, breathing, feeling textures, seeing, but my mind's eye was simultaneously visualizing streams of color, light emissions, cosmic messages and downloads from stars, as conscious awakened and ascended beings-- activating my heart, energizing my energy grid, freeing me of lower, denser energies.

I have become acutely aware how easy it is for me to get sucked into the drama, gossip and fear held by those around me. It is such a familiar, somewhat exhilerating and primal place to become magnetized to! One minute I am holding my center, humming at a high vibration, and then suddenly I fall off the horse and *slam* onto the ground and it almost physically *hurts* to let those fearful and lower energies into my body.

I am becoming more and more aware of the exact moment it happens. And I am speaking up when I notice myself going there with people. Stopping a conversation right in the center and stating clearly that I need to clear my brain of fear, gossip and violence and other energy drainers and re-center myself on the actual experience I want to have in my life -- pleasure, fun, joy and love.

Meanwhile, I watch others around me who have fully bought into the illusory stories they have woven. It has been an interesting experience to start letting everyone tell their story and just listening without really buying into it. There are so many stories... how something isn't working, how broke they are, how they believe other's are judgeing them ... My only challenge now is knowing how to set boundaries so I don't just become a sounding board for negative stories. I have to admit I have little patience for that. I've been using light a lot and surrounding myself in a glowing vortex of angelic white sparkles, or bubbles of pink love energy and the like. Instead of needing to run and just simply not expose myself to any of this, I am noticing what it feels like to hold my center, still be present, work my psychic self protection, and breathe. I become the transparent space which is my essence within each of my cells and their beliefs pass right through me a breeze the the branches of a tree.

Also, truth talking has come front and center again. Speaking up when I feel something off kilter, even if it may cause waves. Radical truth telling. Expressing fear and doubt on the spot. This has always been a challenge for me, and it seems I am attracting opportunities for clearer and clearer communication.

Running into lots of old friends I haven't seen for years and it is amazing to hear and see who has evolved in what ways. It is beautiful to hear about those whom I used to know so well succeed!

I've been supporting these subtle shifts of awareness with some wonderful flower essence products created by my friend Star. Specifically, over the last couple days I have been using Shield of Light Spray and Illumination. I feel shifts, a sliding open of dimensional portals, an army of shimmering protectors... I am so grateful for these wonderful energy medicines created from Peruvian orchids, gemstones, essential oils, and Santa Barbara flowers! I hope I can drop in on Star and meet with her before I leave town.

I also dropped in on a gemstone medic whom I know who crafts magnificent healing gemstone necklaces out of beads she carves herself from prime gem specimens. Her name is Maile. I am wearing the necklace I had her make for me a few years back which was crafted specifically to help me create, teach and share light with the help of an angelic team of emissaries, holding higher and higher frequencies. It felt really good to put it on tonight. I'll sleep with it and let the vibes sink into my etheric body.

I am especially blown away, again, by Ann. Tonight I went to her house and got a delicious massage. She used hot Hawaiian stones on my body, rubbing out all the knots, she sang to me in tones over my chakras in her amazing voice, burned incense, rubbed essential oils and simply radiated healing energy in every way. She lives on a massive, absolutely gorgeous estate up on mountain drive, one of the most magestic, regal and energetically charged areas in Santa Barbara. The vibe up there feels ancient, wise and luxurious. The entire property was meticulously landscaped with desert plants, overlooking the mountains and the entire city, and then the ocean beyond. Inside, rich silks tapestries of pinks, oranges and golds, Buddhas, Quan Yins, gemstones, and a whole Southwest theme. Thick ceramic tiles and wooden beams with stucco, spacious rooms, expansive, and the extreme of "put together". I just stood there and soaked it all in, realizing that my friend had "arrived". I mean, if I was living in such a place, adorned in such a refined and elegant way, sumptuously appointed and in such a wild and earthy location with lizards, rabbits and hawks in the yard... the view, the land, the estate and only 10 minutes form town. Who could really want any more? I am totally impressed with her power of manifestation! Not only is she a wellspring of spiritual, healing, musical and yogic inspiration, she has also mastered the physical material realm. A wonderful contrast to some of the others I have been talking to since coming to town who are playing on the other side of the spectrum. It was healing to my soul just to be in such a place and know that my friend was making it possible for herself to be there. Thanks for beaming your gorgeous Lakshmi energy!

I've decided to consciously reach out to inspiring visionaries like Ann and declare that I want to be more a part of their lives, if they are open to it. Im ready to be surrounded by the highest vibration team of light bearers available on the planet!

Off to sweet dreams and visions of Shangri La. Hopefully the Santa Barbara angels will take me up into the mountains and share some deep healing with me tonight. Thank you!

Edentopia

I had forgotten about the luxuriously nourishing beauty of Santa Barbara! She is SO beautiful!!!! The mountains gleamed in the distance, I went there into the green. Later I laid out on the beach and absorbed the rays and ocean breeze. Orin lightbody meditations carried me to celestial heights as my skin bronzed. Green veggie juice. 70 degrees. Slower pace. Familiar faces! Slowly remembering the streets. The quality of the sunshine is deeply restorative here. I love the land!

Last night I had dinner with my dear friend Ann. She is an incredibly inspiring woman whom I barely got to know before leaving Santa Barbara, but whom I admired from afar. A gorgeous yogini-healer-cosmic emmisary! We were startled, yet not so startled, to find so many common interests and life experiences! She gave me a lot of encouragement to go to Sedona, even if just for a weekend, and soak in the vortexes. Also, she shared her incredibly inspiring experiences at the Osho Meditation Resort Center in India, and Auroville, and I felt kindling alight under my buns for this voyage! Adventures await!

In a few minutes I am off to hooping at the park, a very nostalgic event since I began doing that here many years ago. So many wonderful memories! I look forward to playing with everyone and chilling, then a wonderful dinner afterwards at a local raw/organic joint. Then maybe some painting, writing and reading back at my inn on the beach. I brought all my supplies!

Beauty light bliss orb
Divine bubble of cosmic radiance
Starbeing essence of harmony, co-operation, admiration and inspiration
Ascend my awareness!
Quantum activate my vision!
Illuminate my DNA!
Awaken my intergalactic frequency of love!
Tickle and energize the psychic diva within!
I breathe in light!
I breathe out light!
I AM a lightbeing!
I AM a radiant solar beacon!
My luminosity is calling out to billions of galaxies
Gently requesting a fun, joyous divine download
A funnel of interdimensional expansion
An awareness of my connection to the positive all that is
Legions of shining, sparkly laughing angels
Bazillions of beautiful and benevolent starbeings beaming light and love
Flocks of peaceful ascended masters pulsing love-bliss into the energy matrix
Divine uplifting councils, collectives, soul families and all that is of loving Creator energy~
Heeeeelllllooooo in there!
I am blinking giggles in your honor
I am pulsing a rhythm of beauty which matches your vibration
Place your super yummy, lightbright feel good vibes inside my cells
Awaken my atom's molecular brilliance
Amplify my shine!
I am here to honor and channel Divine Will
Thank you!

Realizing How Far I've Come...

I'm in Santa Barbara. I checked into a hotel on the beach. As I gave my credit card number for incidentals, I realized that this little area of beachside motels was unknown to me while I lived here 8 years, 4 years ago. The reality of the bill I would be paying at the end of my 6 night stay would have also been completely foreign to me as well -- worth three months of what my rent was in the hole in the wall bungalow where i used to live --where I had to walk outside to another building in a courtyard for the kitchen and dilapidated bathroom.

Wow. As I walked from the hotel a block to the beach, I took in the green mountains, the blue water and the clarity of the sun. It was nice to stretch my legs and walk next to the water. As I walked by the East Beach grass park, I suddenly flashed into the past and saw myself here many years ago, set up with my hoop booth at the Sunday craft faire. I watched myself passionately hooping and talking to everyone who would stop about hooping. I saw my body, shaped so different. My hair, so different. My face, so different. My being -- so different. It was like the material of my body was denser then. Not as light and bright as now.

I watched myself hooping and sent myself love into the past. I sent her encouragement that she would rise up and expand her horizons. "You can do it!" I telepathically beamed. Then I let myself go into her eyes, looking at me on the boardwalk, the woman with a glittery purse and light, short hair with a soft face and kind eyes. Then back on the boardwalk, I strolled. Taking in the enormity of really, how much I had changed since I had lived here. Softened. Become more trusting of life. More open.

At that time I was resigned to a life of limited financial means by choice -- so I had lots of free time to hike, wander, play music and enjoy myself. I rarely went out to eat. I seldom indulged lots of new clothes or the like, and when I did, they were usually conservative and with a priority placed on affordability.

I realized how much economic freedom I have gained since then. How much sheer abundance hooping has brought into my life and the lives of the staff of 20+ staff, consultants, performers and others whom I have employed and paid. It was a staggering realization. The flow of financial energy since hooping entered my life, albeit slowly, helped support so many wonderful changes in my life and the lives of so many others.

I sat down next to the water, humming a Yemaya chant. Remembering how I would just come out and play my Shekere, beaded gourd, and do Orissa chants for hours, just singing to the ocean. That was my life. Enjoyment, celebration. Challenges and excitements and good things. Bad things too-- relationships with no boundaries, an inability to say "no" or own my power as well. Not really focused. Drifting, contemplating. Then I thought of the incredible driving focus which my passion for hooping gave me. Such a different vibration!

I realized, too, how I had idolized some spiritual teachers as gurus during those times... sometimes going with situations even if they felt slightly uncomfortable because I sought validation from outside. I realized with a smile how much I seek validation from within now, had become my own guru and gone on so many fantastic lightbody journeys into etheric realms which were simply unknown to me during those times. What a blessing!

My thoughts went to my husband, Kramer. I thought about how lucky I am to have such a magnificent man as my husband. Despite all the ups and downs, over the last weeks, after speaking my truth and doing lots of healing, I have felt a big release and a true return to love. Realizing how much more sophisticated our relationship is than all my relationships of the past... how this has changed too... my way of being with a partner. Speaking truthfully, loving authentically, staying and growing despite the urge to run and avoid being real. Thank God! I am so glad for these relaxations into being.

I feel like I am swimming in gratitude for all the abundant wonderfulness in my life!
I am so happy and joyous and thankful for all the awakenings!
Thank you!!!!
I will continue to beam lots of love to myself of the past
Knowing that we are all connected, all one!
I will open to receive streams of love and encouragement from my self in the future
I am ready to grow and open beyond my perceived limitations!
Open my mind, open my body, open my consciousness to the next level of blossoming
Through joy and pleasure I welcome the beautiful evolution of life!
Light is my body, light is my mind, light is my essence
I am beaming brighter than ever before!
I love Love!
Thank you!

I Can Do It!

I am just bursting with enthusiasm! My brain and body has just been obsessing on the I Can Do It! Conference coming up at the end of June and I finally got up the gumption to sign up, buy my flights and make a reservation to stay at the Venetian! Talk about palatial immersion into the intuitive... I am so excited to just got wallow in the blissful contemplations of the soul in such luxurious accomodations. I plan on bringing some sweet bath salts, flower essences, meditations, and maybe even my vitamixer and a bag full of veggies for my own raw smoothies while there and basically everything else I need to feel fully pampered. It feels significant that I chose to do this over a dear friend's hoop event which it seems the whole hoop world is attending... as if I am choosing a new pathway to my own spirit. Here I go into a whole new world! While I really wanted to attend the conference with a friend or my husband, circumstances have aligned for me to go alone. Ultimately, we all must follow our own path in this way... so it feels real and good. I can just go ahead and keep great company -- myself!

Hooray for the Empress archetype!
I welcome lavish abundance and blissful luxury
I am open to receive inspiring and insightful soul purpose awakenings
I am giddy with delight!
I see myself meeting new allies for a new path
I see myself connecting with unexpectedly kindred spirits
I meet people who wake me up!
I meet people who accelerate my spiritual fire and focus
I envision myself shaking hands with and talking to my most cherished mentors
Louise Hay and I connect
Sonia Choquette and I connect
I radiate light and youthful exuberance
I see gifts pouring into my hands like gold coins!
I see myself looking into my own possible futures as an author
I envision the future
I heal my past
I rock the now with kazaam
I see myself relating and creating new synaptic pathways
I am on fire with focus
I inscribe my realizations with clarity
I see myself taking care of my body with fitness, and wholesome treats I need to feel good
I tend to my own needs and magical upkeep with insight
Everything I need is at my fingertips!
Presence is in my body, mind and spirit
I feel, I AM, I celebrate~
I welcome all things nourishing, restorative and sumptuous
This is what I have been waiting for!

I started a PhD program!

I'm so excited! I just began a PhD in Parapsychic Science through the American Institute of Holistic Theology. I first heard about this school because one of my mentors, Sonia Choquette, received her PhD there -- so I decided to check it out.

AIHT provides distance education programs in fascinating topics, from Holistic Theology to Metaphysics. By far, the degree which intrigued me the most was Parapsychic Science, especially since nearly every class topic, from Understanding Angels to Psychic Intuition, is something I already voraciously read about. The affirmative guidance I feel in my body has been really strong so I am going for it!

This field is one that has intrigued me more and more as the years have passed. The fact that our 5 senses allow us to perceive only 1% of the dynamic and vibrant reality which surrounds us fascinates me! It picks up perfectly where I left off with my last M.A. in Mythological Studies, which was a window into how we create our reality with our stories and beliefs... now I am ready to continue the journey and my build own courage. I am excited to speak out about my interests and develop new skills working with the invisible, yet powerful energies which surround us all and connect our consciousness with all people and beings across space and time. Hooray for the love connection! I sense that it will open my mind and serve me in ways that I can't even begin to imagine!

Prayer to Heal Throat Chakra

I take back my power!
I am a luminary!
I am wise and I respect my wisdom.

Now is the time to summon my spiritual strength!
Now is the time to summon my power!
I put my authority into action with love.
I honor the regal empress within with devout respect.
I speak my truth instead of holding in to "protect" the emotions of others.
I speak my truth as a holy act of worship of the All That Is!

I am like a rushing river of truthfulness!
I let my emotions and thoughts flow freely.
I speak exactly what is on my mind!
Truth is my prayer to my guides, the angels, lightbeings and Source~
My truth-prayers are magnets for sparkling joy particles.
My truth-prayers grow my heart field a thousand-fold!

I honor my high priestess gifts by devout service to truth!
I honor my divine psychic gifts by living, breathing, and eating truth!
Truth, truth, truth, TRUTH!!!
Every cell of of my body vibrates with the frequency of truth!
Every strand of my DNA resonates with authenticity!
Every strand of my DNA glows with the light of integrity!
My whole body is surrounded in the radiance of truth-prayers!

I release the idea of "being confused"!
I release the idea of "not knowing what to do"!
I release the thought that "I am afraid!"
I release the thought of "what will people think?"
I release the thought that "something is wrong"!
EVERYTHING IS RIGHT and in divine perfect luminous order!
I am in the perfect place at the perfect time.
I know what action aligns with my highest truth.

I nurture my throat as a sacred energy center.
I massage my throat with luscious lotions and elixers
I wear gemstones on my throat which open and release energy
My voice is the sacred pathway to I AM THAT I AM!
My throat connects the Divine will from above with the love in my heart.

I take back my power!
I speak my truth!

Note: Today's image (on left) is of the "Dom Pedro", one of the world's largest near-flawless aquamarine crystals, sized at 10,363 carats and 23 1/4 inches (59 cm) Tall. It was found in Brazil in 1910. This stone was cut to create the sculpture called, "Waves of the Sea" (on right) in 1993. It is the largest single piece of cut aquamarine in the world. Aquamarine cools and calms and enhances clear communication.

Theta Healing on Relationships

I receive an instant healing from Creator!
The higher selves of those involved in any difficult relationships with me meet with my higher self.
Our higher selves accelerate healing on the material plane and across all space and time.
Every person involved learns valuable soul lessons from our interaction.
Our inner childs are all instantly healed and pulsing love.
Creator instantly clears all karma!
All cords and psychic hooks are instantaneously evaporated into God's light.
We instantly understand on a soul level our connections across lifetimes and heal now!
We fulfill our role to catalyze awakening within eachother and grow.
We now choose to grow through love and fun!
We learn how to evolve through play and joy!
All places, times and lives during which we have been learning lessons together is instantly healed!

Creator allows me to be fully supported by the new energies coming in.
I am impervious to negative energy.
I am impervious to negative thoughts of people who are not ready to shift.
I allow my heart to stay open, pulsing love, and let natural time unfold.
Creator teaches me how to make decisions from the highest place of love.
I forgive myself fully.
Creator tells me that others can see me as the way Creator sees me.
I am able to see all beings the way Creator sees them.

Creator teaches me how to activate my galactic starbeing family!
I create a large funnel of communication between these beings of light and love and my own heart.
These teachings show me how to hold the frequency of forgiveness.

Creator instantly clears all my karma with men throughout all space and time!
I can instantly discern the difference between which path is less fearful and which is in my highest good.
Creator teaches me how to live my life without ever settling for less.
I instantly learn how to live my life without ever being in survival mode.
Creator shows me that I can never fail at my life purpose.

Creator shows me how to find common ground at all times.
It is my instinct to look for what makes us all the same.
I instantly clear all energy of resentment, anger and sadness.
I can instantly transmute pain and let go of negativity.
I trust in the ability that I am able to be a catalyst.
Creator teaches me how to love without fixing.
Creator shows me how to love beingness, the whole self.

Creator shows me the truth about things if I stay and if I leave.
Source instantly clears the beliefs that I can ever be alone.
I live life saturated in endless love!
I AM love!
Any fears about loosing love are instantly cleared throughout space and time.
I am connected to Source and love continuously!
I AM love!
I am a portal and vortex of unconditional love consistently through infinity!

Creator's definition of acceptance is my definition of acceptance.
Creator teaches me how to have full acceptance of others for who they are.
God shows me the truth of how to move forward.
I allow God to clear out and reconnect our energy and clear communication.

Creator shows me how to be a portal of love everyday with all people.
Source shows me how to live without disconnecting from love.
I keep the flow and pulse of love moving through me even when I am confused.
I trust that I can remain in love and keep it flowing even when I pull back.
Creator teaches me how to feel protected and safe at all times while flowing love.
God's definition of safety is my definition and I have it always.
I instantly recognize when I am pulling back and see how I can keep my heart connection open.
Love can always remain because I am safe!

Creator teaches me how to integrate all these healings instantly, across all space and time!
Thank you!
Thank you!
Thank you!

Growing Onwards

This past weekend I traveled 4 hours north to the Avenue of the Giants. What a tremendous place. Being surrounded by ancient redwood trees of such life experience and size was humbling and inspiring in every level! I laid my head against them and just enjoyed being and breathing in their energy. Imagining that some trees had been standing for up to 2000 years was SO moving -- I imagined a single tree under my hands growing while Jesus, Lao Tzu, and Buddha walked the Earth, through so many remarkable events across space and time! When the land was all walked by Native Americans where I stood. When the air and water was pure and clean. When the whales were plentiful and safe. So many lives over time, so many evolutions and changes. The forests were cool and just touching and placing my head against many trees felt amazing. So tall! I craned my neck back and they still went higher. What wise, wise, wise beings. True giants. I wish I had had more time with them, but I actually had gone up there for a wedding. I do hope to return soon and hike the area more extensively.

On the way I also stopped by the home of my friend, Dawn. I am SO proud of her! She and her husband now have a massive eco-conscious straw bale home of gorgeous design on a 5 acre property in Willits. The shapes inside are all organic and wonderful. It has bamboo flooring with heating underneath, beautiful round windows, curving dorrways and whole logs exposed, a great deck, kitchen... just top to bottom, a wonderful cozy and magical hobbit home. It is modeled after the human chakra system, so each room has been placed with purpose. Being there made me realize how strongly I have a heart's desire for a home as well... so I have decided to replace my the #3 on my current Heart's Desire list with a home. I love it when I have friends demonstrate the amazing power of what is possible!

Today I also had an amazing theta healing session with Dawn as well, by phone. A massive explosion in my awareness! So much... I've also been reading Glenda Green's Love Without End: Jesus Speaks. WOW! It is my companion guide for A New Earth but in narrative, first person form. I am absolutely moved.

Paradise Vision

I've been going through all my past tribe.net blogs to compile material for my first spiritual book and happened upon this from Jan 18, 2008. I decided to re-post it here. I love this entry! Since I have been focusing on Heart's Desires, I feel it is good to remind myself of this dream.

I start every day with meditation in an outside area, on the earth in a special grove which I have created as a sacred sanctuary. I begin with my laughter practice~ warming up my abdomen with breathing and sounding exercises. I move into gentle sounds, then giggles, then full blown laughter. I ride waves of heart-warming chuckles for about thirty minutes, cresting, falling, surfing, rolling onto my back and kicking my legs with glee! I am feeling quite sparkly.

Next I got into my breathing meditation and focus on my surroundings. This special place is surrounded by crystals which amplify energetic sensations.The smell of tropical flowers fills my nose and sweetens my breath. I can feel the living green energy of nature beings surrounding me with love, infusing my body and mind with deep healing and connection. I soften my gaze and let my imagination loose… visualizing fairies and nature beings. My heart opens! They speak to me and I see all the magical details of their ethereal bodies… The colors and shapes of the tropical flowers everywhere are intoxicating – purples, reds, yellows and pinks. The shape of the blossoms is sumptuously feminine and exotic. Unusual bird calls echo through the tress and the sun moves across my skin with shadows as the tree branches rustle overhead. A Venusian goddess statue and a circle of flat, perfectly round river rocks creates a central area of bare earth in the tree grotto. There is the tinkling of a hanging seashell and bamboo windchimes blowing in the breeze. There are thick leaved trees surrounding me, a warm breeze, and a sense of paradise. I close with some prayer to the Universal Source, speaking aloud in wonderful poetic words which feel quite yummy to say.

Afterwards, I grab my sac and walk through the mountainous jungle foliage, communing with nature. I cross through a mysterious and magical bamboo forest back into the jungle. I wear hiking sandles which give me a sense of rugged connection to the ground, as I easily traverse inclines. The views are spectacular! The sun shining through the trees makes me feel giddy! I love the heat! I receive clear communication from plants which I pass, and I stop to listen to them frequently. My whole body feels electric and angelically attuned. Sometimes I speak aloud while I walk, asking questions of my guides and listening to my senses for esoteric symbols and other cellular infusions of information. This morning hike invigorates me. I sweat and enjoy my strong muscles and lean body. My walk ends as the path opens up, out of the tress and onto white, powdery, crystalline sand. Ahead of me is the sparkling ocean! I feel refreshed just from sight of the liquid expanse…. I gasp in awe realizing there is even a rainbow in the sky, beginning just over the ridge and connecting over the horizon!

I sit on the sand for a moment and breathe in the sight. I am so thankful! The water rolls up onto the sand with a wonderfully soothing sound. The colors are electric! I grab my snorkeling gear from my sac and wade into the lagoon, protected from the open sea, into warm calm waters which smell of salt. Dolphin friends swim nearby and approach me playfully, coaxing me into deeper waters with their antics. I swim with them in formation for a while, joining the pod and feeling their sonar pulse through my body with clicks and calls which quicken my cleansing, healing … bliss! They transmit geometric symbols into my mind’s eye which exude color and sound. I feel lifetimes, letting go, emotion….

I feel giddy in their presence! They are so big and animated and move very quickly, but when I slow down they also slow down and wait for me. I dive down and swim with them for a while, then surface again, using my legs like a giant mermaid tail. They are so responsive! I speak to them without words and open my senses to hear what they say in response. I pray for the healing of the earth and the ocean together in the water, and I hear their singsong sounds echo all around me. Are they praying with me?

In my imagination, the dolphins tell me that they are angelic beings who subsist on the energy of joy and that play. They love pleasure and affection as their forms of prayer. They soothe my heart with rainbow colored emanations of sound which pulsate and surround my entire body in luminescent, geometric symbols. My DNA unfurls… activation… 12 strands awakening…I move into a waking dream with them where the dolphins teach me ancient secrets about Atlantis and beings from other planets and galaxies… the transmissions are fast, unconscious, magical. The register only as a feeling of bliss in my body… but I don’t know why. Each gorgeous swimmer is surrounded by their own bright, shining underwater angelic sprite-like magical being. Who knew, but even dolphins have guardian angels! I love softening my gaze and letting these visions come to me…

I emerge from the water after an hour long morning swim and collapse on the beach. I feel so happy, but also a bit tired from the vigorous swimming and telepathic communication. The sun beats on my dark skin feels delicious. I reach into my sac for a towel and slather on some coconut based protective butter. My skin glistens with moisture. It smells delicious. I pull out my water bottle and guzzle, then lay back to rest. Breathing deeply, eyes closed, I stretch out and relax. After my mini siesta, I walk up to my fabulous home, which overlooks the ocean with spectacular views and intoxicating colors.

I eat a wonderful assortment of exotic tropical fruits native to this place. The flavors are so delicious that they make my tounge tingle! The shapes and textures of the fruits are mesmerize me with their organic beauty. I drink green nutritive elixirs and nourish my body thoroughly.

Next I wash off. Some days I like to use the outdoor shower or tub, so I can continue to contemplate outside, and some days I use the indoor shower or tub. There is a sense of timelessness. Each moment seems to shimmer as a precious gift. I feel incredibly alive.

I immerse myself in creativity for the next portion of the day. I take the messages I received during meditation, play, prayer and dolphin swimming and record it in images, guided visualizations, magical art pieces and writing. This is my sacred work.. the transmission of channeled messages of light and love, for empowerment, fun and joy. Incredible! What a blessing! I relax, let go, feel, receive and share. I am clear that I am here to serve humanity –help everyone around me realize we all have a divine life mission. To remind everyone of the miracles which surround us daily -- simply by walking my own path, enjoying it so much and sharing the process. My creative projects circulate around the world and millions smile, breathe deeper and enjoy what I have to share. While I do this work-play of creating, by my side is my live angel Chuhuahua whom I call, “Twinkle”. So adorable! She sits there curled up in her own orb of bliss. Her mere presence reminds me to connect with joy in every moment. She is incredibly affectionate, loving and playful.. but also a little Buddha guide as well.

Once a week I spend about 90 minutes checking in with my other businesses to make sure they are all running smoothly and well managed by the brilliant people who support my success. I confirm whatever travel I have upcoming for presentations and engagements and answer the few inquires which have been sent on to me from my staff. I love how amazingly efficient and reliable and professional they all are! Their devotion to doing the best they can allows me so much free time for my own creative work. I am delighted to see how our income has expanded exponentially over the years from pursuing our passions… life is sweet!

The next part of the day is spent nourishing myself again with whole raw foods and loving companionship. What I love about my husband is how unconditionally loving he is. His eyes are always sparkling and he always has something good to say about everything. He is so happy! He always orients me to see the positive in any situation and his contagious laughter is full of open-hearted appreciation for life. He is a miracle maker and a miracle tracker. He is spiritually open and committed to lifelong growth and transformation to embrace his highest potential in this lifetime. He takes total responsibility for his own sense of success and happiness and always has an abundance of everything to share. I also love that he is so commited to expanding his own sense of connection to the Divine because he has lots of insightful and exciting esoteric ideas to share with me. The fact that we are both so passionate about island living, raw foods, health building, radiance, spiritual growth, art, dance, music, love and play is amazing. I love how humble and completely trustworthy he is and how much he gently encourages me to let go of my own ego and rise to a higher level of understanding and right action, but in a super mellow and easygoing way. I love that I can share anything with him and that I feel totally safe, heard and supported. Of course, I love that we are so close in age and that he is ravishingly gorgeous and an incredible lover too!!!

I come together with my husband and we enjoy preparing food together and playing together for several hours. Some days we go snorkeling. Others we go scuba diving. Sometimes we row out in a sea kyak. Others we lounge and fish while reading in a hammock. We get into tickle matches and roll around and kiss lots, like kids. We naturally come together and enjoy time together... then we separate while I dance and hoop, feeling my own moving meditation, while he does his agility exercises on the beach...I love how we both constantly nourish ourselves with restorative practices! Sometime we both just hang out in hammocks side by side, reading. Sometimes we stroll into town and just hang out with all the wonderful people in the community, or take a yoga or dance class. I am constantly inspired by all the artists who surround us, capturing the magic and beauty of the land in images. We take time and talk about the art we see, what aspects we appreciate... it gives us a lot to appreciate together. It is a deep, quiet, loving connection my husband and I have... even without words or contact. We share our creative insights with each and inspire eachother to trust own process more. He shares his own insights and rewards from his own work with me and I feel richer for his devotion to his own passion…. beautiful balance... we have together time and alone time, each of us connecting one-on-one with our own friends as well. I take time every day to reach out to close friends and stay in touch, in person and on the phone and computer... I love my circle of friends, who are each so incredibly talented and inspiring! I am absolutely blessed to be surrounded by so many love-visionaries and joyous leaders!

Today's image is by Flip Nicklin

Heart's Desire Unfolding

I am continuing to work with Sonia Choquette's Your Heart's Desire and just finished the section on principle #1, Bringing Your Dream Into Focus. The concept of this first principle is that THOUGHT CREATES. I have worked with this before, but it is something that feels like an eternal life lesson! You can't create one thing while you are focused on it's opposite! I experience this at times when I fixate on differences in my husband and my spiritual lives. Suddenly all my mind starts seeing is differences instead of what is the same and it snowballs into one big problem.

Today's prayer:

I will look for what is the same in me and everyone I meet.

This actually is at the heart of my heart's desire: the ability to live in pure love. Love as an ever present, unconditional, joyous acceptance of what is. Love as a natural state of the body in trust of the Divine. Love as a healing, gentle and complete force of what constitutes reality. Love as radiant, present despite all circumstances, generated from within and connected to the All that Is. Instant authentic forgiveness and compassion. Christ-Consciousness style love - love in the highest vibratory force of what is humanly possible. The kind of love that heals the world one person at a time. I long to hold this vibration, as opposed to just catching it and then wondering where it went.

Well, in Sonia's book I had to get a bit more specific about 3 actual Heart's Desire goals I will be working on in this program. Here goes:

I, Christabel Zamor, use the full power of my intention and attention to create the following desires now:
1. Creating a fun spiritual book published my a major publishing house, to inspire and uplift humanity,
2. A loving, joyful, and light-filled marriage which heals and inspires me and everyone we are around, and
3. Development of income-generating psychic skills which place me firmly on the path of my spiritual life mission, deepening my ability to channel messages from angels, guides and Source to spread light and love at quantum speed!

I also had to create a "diddy" to sing to myself to help re-program my beliefs to support this. Here is what I came up with. Kinda silly, but it sticks in my mind and does the job.

Success is easy, easy, easy with Play, Play, Play The world is magic, magic, magic, Love is here to stay, stay, stay!

I've also been listening to the archives of Sonia's radio show. Yesterday she was speaking about clarifying your goal. Listening to her talk people through the clarification of their goals, I realized (remembered) the obvious truth that we are attracted to that which reflects our own potential. It suddenly has become clear to me that I would love to teach at retreats which support playful and fun spiritual unfolding in beautiful tropical places. After all, I love tropical places and I love all kinds of spiritual and psychic events. I voraciously devour books on these topics and do see myself writing these books. But somehow I have never seen the "personal counseling/hypnosis/coaching/psychic practice" of some sort, working with clients one on one, which I assumed would be required to make the leap from book writing to holding events. Hmmm.... I am wondering if this would actually constitute the more tangible form of my listed #3 goal?

At the same time, I have a passionate heart's desire to own a delightful home on beautiful warm land, to get a chihuahua and to have a massive influx of cash! So many heart's desires to choose from! I guess these don't seem top priority to me as much because they are for my own personal pleasure and wants as opposed to what will serve the Earth as much. I'll percolate on it.

I love playing in the realms of creation!