Started my day off with a long walk, strolling through the tides by the ocean, avoiding rocks and the occasional jellyfish. Birds, sand, clean breezes, warm sunshine on my skin, the sensation of cool water on my ankles. I breathed deeply, feeling into everything around me. After 40 minutes in one direction, I turned around and came back, doing an Orin Divine Will meditation on the way back, anchoring Higher Mind into my consciousness with lightbeing transmissions. I was in the material world, breathing, feeling textures, seeing, but my mind's eye was simultaneously visualizing streams of color, light emissions, cosmic messages and downloads from stars, as conscious awakened and ascended beings-- activating my heart, energizing my energy grid, freeing me of lower, denser energies.
I have become acutely aware how easy it is for me to get sucked into the drama, gossip and fear held by those around me. It is such a familiar, somewhat exhilerating and primal place to become magnetized to! One minute I am holding my center, humming at a high vibration, and then suddenly I fall off the horse and *slam* onto the ground and it almost physically *hurts* to let those fearful and lower energies into my body.
I am becoming more and more aware of the exact moment it happens. And I am speaking up when I notice myself going there with people. Stopping a conversation right in the center and stating clearly that I need to clear my brain of fear, gossip and violence and other energy drainers and re-center myself on the actual experience I want to have in my life -- pleasure, fun, joy and love.
Meanwhile, I watch others around me who have fully bought into the illusory stories they have woven. It has been an interesting experience to start letting everyone tell their story and just listening without really buying into it. There are so many stories... how something isn't working, how broke they are, how they believe other's are judgeing them ... My only challenge now is knowing how to set boundaries so I don't just become a sounding board for negative stories. I have to admit I have little patience for that. I've been using light a lot and surrounding myself in a glowing vortex of angelic white sparkles, or bubbles of pink love energy and the like. Instead of needing to run and just simply not expose myself to any of this, I am noticing what it feels like to hold my center, still be present, work my psychic self protection, and breathe. I become the transparent space which is my essence within each of my cells and their beliefs pass right through me a breeze the the branches of a tree.
Also, truth talking has come front and center again. Speaking up when I feel something off kilter, even if it may cause waves. Radical truth telling. Expressing fear and doubt on the spot. This has always been a challenge for me, and it seems I am attracting opportunities for clearer and clearer communication.
Running into lots of old friends I haven't seen for years and it is amazing to hear and see who has evolved in what ways. It is beautiful to hear about those whom I used to know so well succeed!
I've been supporting these subtle shifts of awareness with some wonderful flower essence products created by my friend Star. Specifically, over the last couple days I have been using Shield of Light Spray and Illumination. I feel shifts, a sliding open of dimensional portals, an army of shimmering protectors... I am so grateful for these wonderful energy medicines created from Peruvian orchids, gemstones, essential oils, and Santa Barbara flowers! I hope I can drop in on Star and meet with her before I leave town.
I also dropped in on a gemstone medic whom I know who crafts magnificent healing gemstone necklaces out of beads she carves herself from prime gem specimens. Her name is Maile. I am wearing the necklace I had her make for me a few years back which was crafted specifically to help me create, teach and share light with the help of an angelic team of emissaries, holding higher and higher frequencies. It felt really good to put it on tonight. I'll sleep with it and let the vibes sink into my etheric body.
I am especially blown away, again, by Ann. Tonight I went to her house and got a delicious massage. She used hot Hawaiian stones on my body, rubbing out all the knots, she sang to me in tones over my chakras in her amazing voice, burned incense, rubbed essential oils and simply radiated healing energy in every way. She lives on a massive, absolutely gorgeous estate up on mountain drive, one of the most magestic, regal and energetically charged areas in Santa Barbara. The vibe up there feels ancient, wise and luxurious. The entire property was meticulously landscaped with desert plants, overlooking the mountains and the entire city, and then the ocean beyond. Inside, rich silks tapestries of pinks, oranges and golds, Buddhas, Quan Yins, gemstones, and a whole Southwest theme. Thick ceramic tiles and wooden beams with stucco, spacious rooms, expansive, and the extreme of "put together". I just stood there and soaked it all in, realizing that my friend had "arrived". I mean, if I was living in such a place, adorned in such a refined and elegant way, sumptuously appointed and in such a wild and earthy location with lizards, rabbits and hawks in the yard... the view, the land, the estate and only 10 minutes form town. Who could really want any more? I am totally impressed with her power of manifestation! Not only is she a wellspring of spiritual, healing, musical and yogic inspiration, she has also mastered the physical material realm. A wonderful contrast to some of the others I have been talking to since coming to town who are playing on the other side of the spectrum. It was healing to my soul just to be in such a place and know that my friend was making it possible for herself to be there. Thanks for beaming your gorgeous Lakshmi energy!
I've decided to consciously reach out to inspiring visionaries like Ann and declare that I want to be more a part of their lives, if they are open to it. Im ready to be surrounded by the highest vibration team of light bearers available on the planet!
Off to sweet dreams and visions of Shangri La. Hopefully the Santa Barbara angels will take me up into the mountains and share some deep healing with me tonight. Thank you!