So I am doing a program by my mentor, Sonia Choquette, called "Psychic Sit Ups". Every week she sends me a video lesson about embracing the intuitive self and deepening my connection to spirit, as well as getting access to some conference calls, etc. I watch the video at least once a day and supposed to be journaling about my experience. It is approaching the end of week one ... so here are my insights. This week's theme is simply being open to the word "psychic", embracing that it is a legitimate and natural way of knowing the world that everyone has, expecting divine guidance daily as a natural course of things and being open to taking the guidance to heart. Here are my reflections...
First, after contemplating daily about the meaning of the word "psychic" just meaning "to be open to my own soul", or "being guided by spirit", I realize that it is something I have been working on my entire life. Thinking about psychic in this way excites me and quickens something in me which makes me feel I am on the right path. It also makes me realize that I have held deep negative associations and/or apprehensions around the word, "psychic" itself for a long time.
Before, something of the word smacked of exploitative conjuring and snake oils, and at the same time created a sense of danger and fear of exposure. A part of me has felt a bit nervous even saying the word, itself. I think honestly I have had lifetimes where I have died because of teaching people how to be guided by their own intuition and connection to the divine.
I think also I am becoming more aware of how certain powerful and wealthy organizations simply cannot exist while those they control also believe in their own inherent divinity and personal connection to the holy. There is a deep and complex history around the level of secrets and stereotypes created by these organizations to keep people controlled and complacently obedient. While I have known this intellectually for years, there is more of a personal reality/recollection happening within me now when I sense I can actually access the feeling of fearfulness implanted in mass consciousness in the past. It is still rather dreamlike at the moment, but I sense if I work with this through some past life regressions it will all become crystal clear. So... there is a great healing within me that is asking to happen around embracing my own psychic self... and also excitement about embracing it's true meaning as my own divine birthright.
Second, I realize that there is a part of me obviously psychic, as we all are. I feel like the psychic sense has the capacity to be the highest and most evolved sense of the human animal. Literally, the closest to the experience of "God".
Third, the I Can Do It conference in general, coupled with this psychic work, makes me realize that NOW IS THE TIME! There is no place for excuses, worries about "is this real?", "is this my imagination?", "am I good enough?", "do I know enough?", "when will I find the time?", "what the heck is happening?". The fact that I am so consistently attracted to this whole field is evidence enough that I have a calling and need to follow the path even though I am clueless about the end point. While I need to keep my current career on track (it feeds me in a wonderful light shining way) I also need to STEP UP to the next level of creative expression and soul work which is wanting to birth through me. I am now very clear about the specific project - a book, audio cd and set of cards around a topic I have been working with. Now I simply need to make the time in my daily life for it to download through me in more detail and take whatever steps are needed to share it with as many people as possible. Not to make money (though I am certainly open to receiving!) but simply because I believe that it can raise the emotional frequency in others (who are of course me in "us") in a way which can bring about global healing which is so needed!
Actual psychic experiences I remember having this week:
1. I was driving in the car speaking with Kramer. Suddenly I started talking about a person whom we both know but hadn't seen in a while, for no apparent reason ... he just came strongly into my mind. Less than 5 minutes later we ran into this person in the movie rental store!
2. The next day I thought about needing to get back in touch with a woman whom I had not followed up with in a few months. I thought to myself I should call her and ask her to lunch. Within 2 hours she emailed me asking how I was and asking me out to lunch!
3. Today on a hike while I was walking and having a slightly challenging exchange with Kramer, I actually just started talking to my higher self in my mind, who since the I Can Do It conference has been wanting to be called "Jewel". We had a back and forth exchange in my mind and she counseled me on how to handle the current conversation with Kramer in a much higher and evolved way.... and Kramer and I ended up having an amazingly wonderful talk based on my new approach. Talk about allowing one's self to be guided by spirit!
4. Another thing which seems noteworthy (which feels like a message or symbol) is that I have seen a LOT of disfigured people in the last week. I saw a man with one arm running yesterday. Today I saw a man who looked as if his whole face had been set on fire and had melted. The other day I saw a woman with two hands attached where arms should have been. Every time I saw one of this people, at first I felt a bit of revulsion and I emotionally withdrew. But then I felt what was happening and I accessed a place of sheer gratitude for the gift my physical body and pure loving compassion for each person. This inspired me to bless each of them repeatedly -- actually gifting them with a small bit of my "grace", or life force energy. This form of caring, in a way which was small and emotionally manageable, felt really, really good. I sense that these people have synchronistically come into my life so much recently to help me let go of feelings of "me" versus "others" and holding those who seem different or scarey at arms distance emotionally. I am so grateful for my wonderful body and perfect health!!!!
So this is turning out to be a very fascinating tool. I've only completed 1 of the 52 lessons and look forward to more. I consider Sonia my mentor in the Parapsychic Studies PhD I am doing, so I am delighted to have this one-on-one contact with her. You can learn more about Psychic Sit-Ups here.
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