light bliss

So Excited to Find My Sauna!

So I have an appointment tomorrow at 12:30 in downtown SF at the Clearlight Sauna showroom. I did some online research and got a good vibe from their site, plus they are having a sale! I am so excited to go check out the units. I am currently deciding between the 1 and 2 person saunas. Honestly, I am thinking I will probably just go for the 2 person since it will be more inviting to extend my legs instead of always having to sit up or with crossed legs in the 1 person. Plus, if I have HoopGirl Sleepovers, the other girls can use it too!

I am filled with positive anticipation. I love that these units have a lifetime warranty on the wood, heaters and sound system. I love that it is made out of fragrant red cedar! I love that they are all hand carved instead of factory produced. I love that they combine carbon and ceramic heaters and that they are on the front side and back side of the unit! I love that there is a wonderful CD player with an ipod jack to play music or spoken word. I love the exterior and interior lights and that I can get a custom backrest built in to make it more comfortable. I am jazzed that it runs on regular electricity and that it has wooden feet which keep it up off the floor and that it weighs a reasonable amount. I also really like that it can be assembled and disassembled in an hour and that it will fit perfectly into my spare room!

I am delighted that these units use far infrared technology. I so enjoy that these saunas warm me to my core. I love that they allow me to sweat out toxins and purify my body. I love the feeling of being warm! I love the idea of soothing my body with radiant heat. I adore the idea of utter relaxation and letting go. I love the idea of having my own in house spa experience whenever I want it. I am overjoyed when I imagine the the feeling of opulent luxury of using my own sauna anytime I want to. I am thrilled to realize that I am making my dreams all come true! I love that I am attracting everything to me which uplifts and enhances my vibration. Yay!

Realization about Abraham Material - This is as Leading Edge as it Gets!

While driving to the  HoopGirl Teacher Training today, I had a smile from ear to ear. I was listening, as I have been more and more, to an audio recording of Abraham doing a workshop. Abraham was speaking on the topic of relationship, and one's ability to feel connected to Source.

Abraham is a collective of non-physical teachers who is channelled by Esther Hicks. One of her recent books is #1 New York Times Bestseller. This stuff isn't fringe new age material -- it is practical and concise guidance for experiencing well-being in every aspect of your life. And it is quickly saturating mainstream consciousness. 

If the idea of channeling seems "spooky" or "weird" (as it was for me at first) all you have to do is listen to what she is saying instead of analyzing how it is happening. For me, letting go of my egoic need to know everything about everything allowed my mind to open and absorb a level of insight and revelation beyond anything I have experienced in my life. I am so inspired! 

I actually have a pretty extensive metaphysical library. I was standing in front of my bookshelf the other day and noticed a feeling of frustration... I realized that pretty much everything on the shelves was eclipsed by the sophistication, usefulness and depth provided to me by Abraham. Every title which at one time felt so "leading edge" suddenly felt like kindergarden level material.  I glanced especially at my AIHT schoolbooks for the Parapyschic Science PhD program I am studying. In a flash, I realized that everything Abraham offers me is leagues beyond what I was exploring there. Abraham is like the graduate school in consciousness I looked for elsewhere. I realized right then and there, I need a shift! 

I'm withdrawing from AIHT and instead, focusing the energy and attention I wanted to direct there specifically to the Abraham material. I just honestly have never experienced such significant, ongoing, personal transformation at the level I am now experiencing. This stuff is as leading edge as it gets!  I am so grateful for my recent immersion! Thank you!!! 

In Love With My Life!

I am just back from East Bay Ecstatic Dance and feel overwhelmed with joy!

As I walked to my car to leave for this event, I was struck by how WARM it was outside. No breeze, just a tender warmth which felt so nurturing. As I drove, I listened to some of the new Abraham CDs which I purchased from another student. The words were so deep and meaningful -- I felt my soul brimming with awareness and positive expectation. As I crested the hill, I was struck by how beautiful the purple sky was, the gorgeous mountains in the distance, and white horses atop a nearby hill just grazing in the bright green grassy expanse, and standing in their own bubble of a world. I thought to myself, "how lucky am I??" I felt completely at home -- a feeling of comfort and ease and happiness for MARIN! I am so happy here and the land is already healing my nervous system.

As I drove, I found myself getting giddy! It was so nice to be away from the day's work, away from sitting, being nurtured and awakened by the wonderfully wise words of Abraham, anticipating the amazing dance ahead of me. 

As the words went on and on about positive expectation, I realized that I have been actually beginning to anticipate the Abraham Tahiti cruise! Before, it seemed like such a far away idea... but as the date has approached, I have thought about bundles of money I have had here and there which could pay for it... the feeling of the warm sun on my skin, wearing a soft gauzy white sundress and a widebrim hat, standing on deck and looking out at the tropical ocean, shining like luminescent crystals.I have been dwelling on the physical sensations in my body in response to the sheer beauty of the water, the generosity of the local people, the high frequency vibration of opulent presence emitted by all those attending the cruise. I have thought about all the remarkable conversations and a-ha moments I would have with those there over sumptuous meals, in percolating hot tubs and on white, sandy beaches. I have imagined the massive inflow of insights I will have while listening to Abraham speak to whomever is in the hot seat. I have been attuning myself to this frequency... this harmonic of radiance, the sensation of assuming I will get the best of everything life has to offer! So I ruminated on this as I drove, listening to Abraham continue.

I met some great friends there - Jennaluna, Jenny, Julie, Rich, Lauren, Rosie - and had a fantastic  time! I also caught the gaze of potential new friends as I whisked through the crowd in my own little world... there is a vibrance and shimmering energetic to the crowd who attends this gathering -- a youthful readiness, juicy healthiness and wonderfully welcoming vibe. I loved that one woman danced the whole time with no shirt on, like it was the most natural thing in the world. I loved that a little babies ran around the dancefloor, stopping every now and then to bob up and down, mimicing the dancers. I loved the 2 dogs, tucked away in corners, the raw food table, the gorgeous altar with candles and sacred geometric rainbow colored art, the massive dance floor with plenty of room to move, the great music and the respect with which everyone there treats each other. So honoring!

The dance event was profoundly healing and transformative. I created a conversation between my muscles, joints, organs and the music. I let myself become endlessly fascinated by micromovents, undulations and dynamic stillness. I let the music dance through me, expressing in surprising ways, twirls, vibrations, diving launches onto the floor and twittering hands. I let go of all thought and instead aligned my physicality to the different instruments and rhythms. It was delightful to let a sound travel through my pinky, wrist, up my arm and watch it leap to my opposite heel, then dance through my liver and into my eyes... it was like this that it progressed for me. A body journey. It was like a non-stop choose your own adventure story where I was as surprised as my body at what came through. I also especially enjoyed playing with my fingers, hands, wrists, elbows and shoulders. Making shapes and splashing chi, moving energy with palms and channeling, downloading symbols and transcendent gestures. Throughout it all, a feeling of beaming joy, connection, thankfulness, purification and surrender.

As I pulled into Mill Valley, I just felt so wonderful! I LOVE THAT I LIVE HERE! YAY! I love that I pulled right into my parking space! I love that I don't need to think about street cleaning. I love that my new mattress is being delivered tomorrow! YAY! I love that my teacher training is sold out for this weekend! YAY! I love that my life is so fantastic, I am surrounded by such brilliant remarkable friends and support people. I love my body -- I especially love my BOOTY! I got back and I'm lovin it, baby! I love all the smiling people I spent time with tonight and I send them lots of blessings. I send a rainbow of love out to everyone I know!

Rampage of Appreciation for Hoopdance

I love hoopdance! I adore how the hoop feels on my skin as it swings and grooves around my torso. I love the pressure of the push against my core, and the release as it swings away. I love how the hoop pushes me to move fast, sleek and like a cheetah. I love when it invites me to slow down and inhabit sensual grace. I love that I get so caught up in the sensations that I am driven to jump high, squat lower, roll around on the floor and explore my edges. I adore when I am inspired to move even slower than I thought possible, exploring postures, stillness and whirling. 

I love how much awareness I feel in every finger while hooping. I love that the hoop trains me to be curious about what my fingerprints, palm, wrists and elbows are saying to the music. I love it that my awareness of planes, grids, angles and shapes is amplified. I love it that hooping immerses me in a magical world where everything moves chi and energy. Yes!

I am crazy about hooping on my upper body in Snake position while letting the rest of my body syncopate with the music.  It feels amazing! It feels so good to lock every cell of every fiber of my being into the beats and melodies and to be a visual representation of sonic stimulation. When I allow the music to speak through my dance, every pore of my skin just opens up to soak in a feeling of goodness. 

I love it when it feels like I am flying! I love it when it feels like I am a capoeria master. I love it when it feels like I am a temple priestess, Eygptian magi, goddess or starbeing from another galaxy. I love it when I can feel the transmission of light codes while spinning. I love it when my DNA seems to re-order itself in a higher alignment. I adore it when my body tunes to a higher frequency. I love it when hooping softens my heart and allows me to connect and live more freely and honestly.

I so appreciate learning new hoop techniques. The thrilling zing of realizing I am on the edge of something new delights me! I love the rush of exiliheration and joy which arises from feeling myself approaching a new meadow, valley or crossroads in my dance practice. 

I feel so blessed and lucky to have hoopdance in my life. I love my hooping community! I love my hoop teachers and all the wonderful people who support hooping and enable me to thrive while spreading the love even further. 

I see myself practicing more and more and more and LOVING IT! I see myself using my new hoop studio every day, playing all different kinds of music and savoring the moments of presence and elation which I experience. I see myself committing to hoop prayer and making it happen with ease and flow. I love how natural it feels to hoop daily and how deeply it feeds my soul. I love how inspired it leaves me feeling and how open and receptive I am for life.  I am so grateful! Thank you!

Loving my eyesight!

 

I must have angels watching over me!!! Thank you for protecting my eyes! I'm experiencing a massive overflow of APPRECIATION FOR MY EYESIGHT! 

I am SO GRATEFUL for my eyesight! I love my eyes! I love how easily they focus. I love how my eyes discern colors and shapes. I adore seeing! I love the beauty and lushiousness of eyesight and all the wonderful gifts it provides me with.

I appreciate how moist my eyes are. They easily renew themselves with tears as needed to keep my eyeballs moving with ease. I love that I don't even have to think about keeping my eyes moist, that they just monitor themselves and make any adjustments as needed.

I love that when I need to let emotions flow, my eyes know how to easily cry and allow healing. My tears are very wonderfully salty and purifying and I am grateful to my wise eyes for knowing how to allow my stream of wellbeing.

I love how my eyes easily focus. If something is far away, they work their magic to help me discern it. If something is close, they also do some beautiful adjustments to help me see with ease. I love seeing. I ADORE SEEING!

I love seeing the full rainbow of colors! I adore seeing all the different hues of each color. I am so happy to be able to discern the full spectrum of the rainbow!! Yay!

I SO appreciate the color of my eyes. I know my eyes are an unusual bluegreen and I appreciate their hues. I love how my eyes change with my moods. I love how my eyes look against my olive skin. I love the whites of my eyes. I love how they do what they need to do to stay white and create a beautiful contrast with my irises and skin.

I adore the integrity of my eyeballs. I love how they are resilient and strong. I love that the shape of each eyeball is perfect. I am so grateful for wonderful eyelids and fantastic eyelashes! Yay!

Thank you for such wonderful eyes! I am so grateful for the magnificent health and wellbeing of my eyes. Every day, my eyes feel healthier and healthier! I love my super healthy and wonderful eyes! My eyes deliver an amazing amount of information to me with ease and accuracy.

I love that my eyes shine with sparkles and life force energy. I love that my eyes are strong enough to see in sunlight and discern in darkness. My eyes give me so much pleasure and joy! Seeing is such a precious, wonderful, divine gift! I am so grateful.

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Things I love about my new home..

 

I love the lamp which mom gave me yesterday, sculpted like a metal tree at the base and with colorful orange and yellow mosaic glass pieces on top. It's beauty warms my heart! It gives my cottage a wonderful homey feel. Yay!

I love the fluffy, white sheepskin rugs I got today! They make my home snuggly and wonderful. I love that there is one right next to my bed in my loft so my toes can be super warm the moment I step out of bed. Sweet!

I love my big widows! I love that they let me see all the green and browns of nature right outside my home. I love that I can see people walking on the street, with dogs, kids, groceries and feel the gentle flow of life happening.

I am so grateful for my ceilings! I love that they are high and in a "V" shape, with thick wood cross beams which make me think of a mountain ski lodge. I love the warmth of the wood and the character of each piece.

I love my loft! It is so cute. I love that my ladder is strong and stable and easy to climb up and down. I love how snuggly my bed is up there. I love that I can look down into my livingroom from up high. I'm grateful for my lotus lamp by my bedside and my goddess altar with crystals near my feet.

I love all my dear, beloved plants!!! I am so lucky to care for all these magnificent green beings who share so much vitality and oxygen with me. Thank you!

I adore my cute, little kitchen table and my chair. I love my sofa! I love my compact desk and it's antique feel. I love my wood bureau and how clean the lines are and how beautiful the wood is. I love my awesome fireplace!!!! Yaayayay! I love how easily it works and how clean and tidy it is. I love my kitchen! Everything has just the right place to be in and I love how it looks out into the livingroom. I love all my closets! I really, really, love my floors, which are all wood and super smooth and light colored wood. I love my big deck and my view. I love my plumbing! I love how fast the hot water flows in the bathtub and how much hot water there is! I love the heating system! I adore that I can warm the space to the perfect temperature for me in a jiffy. I love the energy here! I The moment I pull in the driveway and into my parking space I feel my nervous system relax. As I walk up to my door I feel at home. When I walk in, my whole body is relieved and bathed in joy. 

I am so grateful for this sanctuary!

Rampage of Appreciation for Living in Mill Valley

I am so happy to live in Mill Valley! I love driving over the Golden Gate Bridge. I love watching the gleaming water and the sun on the water and the rolling green hills. I love driving through the tunnel with a rainbow painted on the side as I go north. I adore cresting the hill and descending into the valley. The feeling which sweeps over me is one of expansive possibility and calm. I instantly feel grounded and connected to the earth as I notice big trees towering on the sides of the freeway. I love looking out over Sausilito and seeing the beautiful water, boats and homes beaming from their hillside perches. It is so nice to see the expanse of Tiburon and appreciate it's abundance and magesty. I love thinking of all the happy successful people who are living in those places as I pass by, and I send blessings.

As I enter Mill Valley, I really take time to appreciate the smallness and slowness. I love the teak sales stand with kids jungle gyms and patio furniture for sale. I love the stand selling fruits and vegetables at the corner which goes up to my mom's gorgeous glass house. I love knowing that street also goes to glorious trails which connect to the ocean. I love passing the street which leads to Muir Woods and Stinson Beach, remembering how wonderful it is to visit those places and knowing how close to them I now am. 

I love passing the many small businesses, resolute in their determination to succeed despite all odds! I love the many, many healing centers, the spiritual and yoga centers, the Whole Foods, the diversity of gourmet foods and all the cute random high end shops. I love the beauty of the high school with all it's Spanish tile roofs and big campus and abundant fields with healthy kids almost always playing soccer, laccrose or some other sport. 

I especially love when the trees start getting big along the sides of the road and Mt. Tam looms into view, overlooking the whole valley like a magical, ancient guardian. I love the spirit of this mountain! I feel it's wisdom and strength and patience. It really delights me that the speed limit is 30 miles per hour! It feels so good to slow down my speed and focus on my breath and basking in the glow of being.

The town center is one of my favorite places! There are always lots of cute kids and families and dogs playing at the town square and it has a wonderful, homey vibe. I love the wholesomeness of it all! It feels like homebaked apple pies and hot cocoa! I love the artists here, living in their mountain retreats, being creative and relaxing. I love the old people who live here and smile while they drink coffee. I love all the women who seem so relaxed in their skin and content to move at their own natural speed. All the women with spaceage baby strollers are delightful to watch as well!

I really appreciate that people who live here look like they really take care of themselves. I deeply appreciate the beauty of the houses here, some modern, some quaint and elaborate, the yards, cars, birds and grass. I love that the police and parking officers usually don't give you a ticket if you talk to them. I love that the meters use only 25 cents for 30 minutes. I SO appreciate that everything I need is so close! Wonderful foods, resturants, bookstore, cafes, shops... it is all here! I am especially elated that so many blissful hiking trails are so very close to me! I am so excited to explore and adventure in the green and walk on the earth.

My new home is a sanctuary of JOY! I LOVE my apartment!! I adore the wood cathedral ceilings and floors, the big fireplace, the big balcony, my dance studio, loft bedroom, big closet, fantastic kitchen and living room. I have happy, young, smiling neighbors who are kind and vibrant. I love that I don't share any walls with neighbors. I LOVE my parking space!!!! So cool! I'm on top of the world for the grove of redwood trees right outside my window, overlooking my entire place. And I also just want to squeal with delight in celebration of how the sunlight streams in around 7:30 in the morning and warms my entire cottage. I am SO lucky! I love how nice and quiet it is in here and how deeply and restfully I sleep. 

I am SO happy here! I know I am exactly where I belong. I so appreciate how it feels like a retreat center. I an so grateful for the opportunity to reflect and restore my body, mind and spirit. I am full of anticipation and excitement to see what magical miracle unfolds next to amplify my appreciation of being here even more! Thank you!

Wouldn't it be nice if...

Wouldn't it be nice if I found myself having more and more free time every day? Wouldn't it feel swell if I noticed more and more time in my schedule to contemplate, reflect, read, hike, hoop and nurture myself! Wouldn't it be fun if I spent more and more time in the woods, on mountains, near waterfalls and on beaches! It would be wonderful if I began to make more and more time to feel good. It would be amazing if I made more time to daydream and fantasize about all the things which delight me. I would be tickled by all the time invested in imagining things which are amazing, beautiful and uplifting! 

It would be  phenomenal if I followed through on all the things I say I intend to do -- attend more dance classes, invest more time in my hoop practice, deepen my meditation practice, heal my body on all levels, manifest a collaborative spiritual event with Candice, take naps, fantasize while laying in hammocks, travel to tropical islands for time off, swim with dolphins more frequently, attend more events with like-minded individuals, travel to places like Sedona... 

Wouldn't it be nice if I made laughing everyday a priority! Wouldn't it be fun if I remembered to call into the laughter conference calls every day! Wouldn't it be amazing if I made lightbody meditations the most important appointment of my day! Wouldn't it feel good to spend more time taking baths, using emollient lotions and to lavish my physical body with appreciation!

Wouldn't it be nice if I found it easier and easier to pay my rent because of the avalanche of wealth pouring into my life! Wouldn't it be so nice if so much abundance cascaded into my life that buying an epic house was the easiest thing in the world for me - as easy as buying a bottle of water at a corner store! Wouldn't it be nice if I could move and live anywhere, at any time, no matter what because I had so much income and so much free time!

Wouldn't it be amazing if I found myself surrounded by so many vibrationaly aligned  kindred spirits that I could hardly choose who to spend time with. It would be spectacular if I played more and more and gave away even more responsibilities to other people! Yay!

Wouldn't it be fantastic if started every morning taking 20 minutes to bask in the beauty of being alive! Wouldn't it be amazing if I took time every day to do focus wheels to uplevel my own frequency! Wouldn't it be grand if I focused on getting into and staying in my vortex 100% of the time in all situations! Wouldn't it be great if I could remember the value of aligning myself to Source no matter what! Wouldn't it be divinely aligning if I took an hour long walk or hike in nature daily to attune myself to the Earth's beauty! Wouldn't it be amazing if I remembered to pray in thanksgiving for all my blessings every day as a chronic habit!

Wouldn't it be freakin out of this world mind-blowingly amazing if I could attend the Tahiti Wellbeing Cruise with Abraham! Wouldn't it be immensely nurturing to lie on white sand beaches, swim in clear blue, warm tropical waters and bask in the glow of joyful aliveness in every moment! Wouldn't it be even better if this was my daily reality at any moment I chose it! YES! 

Wouldn't it be nice if I could feel spectacularly centered, aligned, confident and healthy in every single second of every single day! It would be! It would be so wonderful to always do exactly the things which I know would bring me into my highest state of being! It would be so delightful to say yes to every opportunity which enhanced my wellbeing and to gracefully glide beyond anything which didn't!

Wouldn't it be nice to feel flooded with euphoric happiness more and more! Wouldn't it be nice to swirl in the feeling of joyful anticipation at all times! Wouldn't it delight me to devote myself to joy as my primary focus in life! YES! YES! YES!

Yippie for life!