One thing which I have experienced lately is how powerful it is to tell a new story.
For years I felt so insecure in my own ability to stay in alignment that I needed to create a cocoon around myself to maintain sanity. I was very, very sensitive. This meant that I pushed away all people, places and things which felt "negative" or "lower vibration". I just couldn't handle it. I didn't want to really spend time with anyone who "wasn't on the path" of self-reflection and spiritual inquiry. I focused so intently on creating a "safe" environment for myself to do my inner work, I became critical and judgmental of others. Kind of ironic! I wanted to evolve and experience love at a deeper level, and yet held most at arms distance.
I was isolated but I didn't connect the dots. The stories I had in my brain focused on what made me different from those around me rather than what made us all the same. I was living in an illusion of separation. Anything which felt different from my way (which I assumed was THE way) was used as an excuse to emotionally withdraw and go into my own little world. Looking back, I don't judge myself... I think I was just learning and growing and going through a tender phase. About to blossom, but still delicate...
But then something amazing happened. I went away from everything and focused on me. I really set down strong roots of who I AM... and realized I am all, I am you, I am we, I AM, WE ARE ALL ONE. Of course, you could say "duh!" But to really viscerally experience a sense of unity with all beings (off drugs but with the same intensity) is quite profound. A huge wake-up.
Looking back, I realize I was telling a story about disconnection.
But when I created connection within myself and to Source, I felt the safety I craved. I realized my job was just to be me, radiate light, and create an expectation of authentic connections with all people, regardless of differences or similarities.
The beautiful surprise... when I started showing up and being present, everyone who I had labelled "superficial" started acting the same with me. Wow! Magic.
Of course, no one else changed, I changed. My story changed. And then reality conformed itself to validate my story.
I just wanted to share this because it has felt like a tremendous awakening for me. I am peeling back my beliefs and doing some deep cleaning. It feels so great to let go of fears, anchor myself in my own vibration and tell a good feeling story! Life is a miracle. We are surrounded by love!