Telling A New Story: Focusing On What Makes Us the Same

 

One thing which I have experienced lately is how powerful it is to tell a new story.

For years I felt so insecure in my own ability to stay in alignment that I needed to create a cocoon around myself to maintain sanity. I was very, very sensitive. This meant that I pushed away all people, places and things which felt "negative" or "lower vibration". I just couldn't handle it. I didn't want to really spend time with anyone who "wasn't on the path" of self-reflection and spiritual inquiry. I focused so intently on creating a "safe" environment for myself to do my inner work, I became critical and judgmental of others. Kind of ironic! I wanted to evolve and experience love at a deeper level, and yet held most at arms distance.

I was isolated but I didn't connect the dots. The stories I had in my brain focused on what made me different from those around me rather than what made us all the same. I was living in an illusion of separation. Anything which felt different from my way (which I assumed was THE way) was used as an excuse to emotionally withdraw and go into my own little world. Looking back, I don't judge myself... I think I was just learning and growing and going through a tender phase. About to blossom, but still delicate...

But then something amazing happened. I went away from everything and focused on me. I really set down strong roots of who I AM... and realized I am all, I am you, I am we, I AM, WE ARE ALL ONE. Of course, you could say "duh!" But to really viscerally experience a sense of unity with all beings (off drugs but with the same intensity) is quite profound. A huge wake-up.

Looking back, I realize I was telling a story about disconnection. 

But when I created connection within myself and to Source, I felt the safety I craved. I realized my job was just to be me, radiate light, and create an expectation of authentic connections with all people, regardless of differences or similarities. 

The beautiful surprise... when I started showing up and being present, everyone who I had labelled "superficial" started acting the same with me. Wow! Magic.

Of course, no one else changed, I changed. My story changed. And then reality conformed itself to validate my story.

I just wanted to share this because it has felt like a tremendous awakening for me. I am peeling back my beliefs and doing some deep cleaning. It feels so great to let go of fears, anchor myself in my own vibration and tell a good feeling story! Life is a miracle. We are surrounded by love!

p.s. This photo is by Jeff Hubis. An epic night dancing and fun with the Plump DJs and Seismic playing at Mighty.

Comments

[Thomas]

Thank you for taking the time to meet YOU.

[josie]

Yes, I feel very similarly.. lots of sensitivity, hiding and solitude and self reflection. For years! It was a gift to me but yes I am done with it now too. Now I love being in connection with people.. friends,strangers, animals and trees! This year has been full of shifts and letting go and now I just relax and smile at people with my inner being warmly moving along... like a bubbling brook. And if I can't get there some time I just wait it out...trying not to identify with my mind...and knowing it will shift soon.

you put this SO well :) thank you!
my favorite part is 'I am peeling back my beliefs and doing some deep cleaning. It feels so great to let go of fears, anchor myself in my own vibration and tell a good feeling story! Life is a miracle. We are surrounded by love!'

Happy Thanksgiving!