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Clarity Breathwork Experience at Stewart Mineral Springs Retreat (Part 4 of 4)

This is part 4 of an account I wrote about the Level 1 Clarity Breathwork Retreat. To catch up, check out parts 1, 2 and 3.

On Saturday morning I awoke and wrote, “Theta Healing to Heal Trust in Men”, had breakfast and went for my morning walk. I enjoyed taking pictures and communing with different rocks and pools of water. Next, the workshop then began with more beautiful kirtan, and mystical flute music by Dana. The sounds were resonant, moving and very spiritual, especially those she played with a Native American drone flute in F sharp. It connected me with a timeless inner self which felt very ancient and wise.

Next, Ashanna led us on a Rainbow Bubble Meditation to the top of Mt Shasta to meet the ascended masters. Ashanna is a truly talented visualization leader and her soothing voice, clear words and accessible imagery was easy to assimilate. We connected with the land, the ancient peoples of the land, and the beings and teachers in the whole area, especially Archangel Michael and St Germain. It was lovely and left me feeling full of light, sparkling luminosity and a feeling of connection to my guides.

Next we did an inner child healing where we talked to a partner as if they were our parents and spoke to 4 specific questions:

1. What was it like for you growing up with us?
2. What was difficult for you?
3. What would you have needed?
4. What did you come to believe about yourself?

I held space for my partner first and it was very amazing to hear the kinds of things that someone else has experienced on this level with their parents. It really put things into perspective in my life and made me re-consider how these vastly different upbringings effect us in different ways. Even though I didn’t really think I had much to say, when my turn came I was just like a fountain pouring out things, mostly all to my dad around things such as being present, a part of my life, emotionally available, etc. Just giving voice to these things I had never really articulated in this way was quite freeing. I was beginning to see how all the dots connected during this experience relating to beliefs about men…

Next was another breathing session, but this time, my self-inquiry partner held space for me as my facilitator and stayed with me the whole time. It was truly a spectacular experience. My friend tucked me in in blankets and made sure I was cozy and then just sat next to me in breathing meditation, gazing at me with soft eyes while I breathed. It took me a bit longer to get into the state this time, and I had moments of dry throat and forgetting to breathe. 

My eyes were closed for about 15-20 minutes while I just flooded my whole body with breathe. Once the tingling started I sensed that “membrane” sensation in the back of my throat again and it took me a while to get through it. I felt my heart melt open as I opened my eyes and saw my friend gently smiling and gazing down at me, looking like the divine mother. As I breathed, I breathed into her consciousness looking down at me as a tender midwife. I named my experiences as I had them. “My throat is dry, my hands are tingling, etc…” She simply smiled and said, “thank you for naming that.” Or “good”. Tears started flowing and I felt a lot of sensation and emotion.

I found myself struggling and resisting against the sustained breathing but I also knew on a deep level it was making more more human and divine at the same time, blasting open my heart. As I inhale deeper, yet more tenderly, I started to feel love pour through me around my father. I realized that Dad's withholding of nurturing was probably the greatest gift he ever gave me! I realized that this required me to go out and learn how to experience nurturing deeply and become the source of nurturing for myself and everyone around me.

Another direct download: I got the clear knowingness that it was “the little things that count” with love. The little gifts of time, attention, listening, and touching which can happen with very little effort are actually massively meaningful. I realized I can be a source of these things for others – providing safety, listening, nurturing, integrity, time, and understanding.

I also had a revelation that my parents forcing Roman Catholicism upon me, which led to me “hating God”, actually was another gift because it allowed me to go away and find my own mystical truths and come home to a realization of the true infinite vastness of Creator. The tears poured out as I felt a deep and intense love of Source, formless, genderless, free of any religious affiliation or dogma. I just felt the ALL pulse through me, as me, and was overtaken with a kind of rapture which made me smile with glee and then start laughing. I felt a fleet of angels around me, Gabriel, Michael, lightbeings, Christ Consicousness and many, many others. Hundreds of other angels and beings of light were packed into the room, supporting me and teaching me how to open more fully. This ecstatic state went on for a good 10 minutes as I continued to deepen my breaths.

Dana came by and sat for a bit with me. It felt SO amazingly nurturing to have a woman on each side of me while I had all these feelings. Waves of tenderness washed over me and I felt so mothered! I felt such gratitude for such powerful women role models all around me, embodying divine beauty and wisdom. Dana asked me about stepping into my next level (as I had brought this up earlier in a group talk), asking me what I was afraid of. I said I had had a fear because I didn’t know what I would say once I gathered women together. But that people were just asking me for gatherings and events and saying all I had to do was show up. They said that just to be around me would transmit the information and it was enough. We looked deep into eachother's eyes. Suddenly, even saying that sounded so silly.

I realized in an instant that my own role was to purify myself as a vessel of divine love and that would be enough. It felt like another “a-ha!” moment. All I had to do was let go, love, pulse love, be love, share love. By doing this, I would fulfill my role. What could be easier? What could be more divine? What a gift!

Feeling all these super cosmic realizations, I had a knowingness that breathwork for me is an amazing medicine form which will aid me as I step into the next level of my evolution. A sudden flash of future sight came to me~ I would complete the whole training to becoming a Clarity Breathwork practitioner! I looked up a my friend, looking down at me as if she was sitting on clouds of ascension, and realized that this was how I could hold space for birthing. Instead of being a pro-creative mother giving birth through my body, I was called to be holding space for women’s recreation of themselves using this and the other modalities I had been studying and unifying. It felt like a massive a-ha! Goddess Blossom revealing herself to me even further. How could it all be this easy?

Watching my friend watch me, I had another “inside-out” experience in my perception where I saw how clearly it nourished her to be present for me, and I longed for that experience myself. My own heart was blasting open from the breathing and I realized that any practice which opened me to such depths of emotions on a regular basis would surely cultivate within me the state of divine love I wanted to be/feel/share.

Waves of the ecstatic feeling of spiritual connection and angelic communication continued to sweep through me and I rode the waves. I felt SO connected to the divine masculine, divine feminine, the whole cocoon of life itself emerging to the next level. Soon, some soft music came on and a signal that we should turn on our sides and begin integrating. It took me quite a while to sit up. As I came back, I was shocked to realize that I was experiencing menstrual cramps, something biologically impossible for me. (I hadn’t had a cycle in 4 years since my last surgery for Endometriosis). It was crazy! I felt into my belly again and realized, yes, these are menstrual cramps! How amazing to feel the body literally re-birthing itself against all chemical odds of possibility. Soon the feelings subsided, but I was wowed and curious... 

As my perception restored itself from the altered state, I had the knowingness that I had just had a massive life-changing experience. Any lingering doubts of why I had been called to attend this event were instantly evaporated.

We had a lunch break for two hours so I went straight to the mineral baths and did a 1.5 hour routine of springs, sauna and creek immersion until I was literally weak in the knees. I really wanted to take full advantage of the healing properties of the land and facilities to help me integrate the deep realizations I had. Everytime before I got into the creek I sang a hymn of purification to focus my intent. Then with 10 minutes to spare, I ate a muffin on the way back to class, stopping for a moment to put my packed bags in the car.

Upon returning, we did another exercise where we identified what was called our “personal lie”, the story we told ourselves which created the most unneeded pain in our lives. Interestingly, mine started as “I’m loosing myself”, then went to, “I’m loosing my connection to God”, then, evolved into a bottom belief of “I don’t belong”.  This originated from some recurrant self criticism which I subjected myself to around my lifestyle choices of what I ate and drank, how much I did or did not exercise, and how I spent my free time. I initiated some deep healing around a sense of belonging with some affirmations to the group and their reflection back to me.... releasing the idea that I had to be anything other than what I already was to be a part of the community.

Next, I facilitated my partner's hour long Breathwork session. It was actually much harder than I thought because I noticed I kept wanting to "take care" of her. Breathwork is very expansive... when you do it you shift around, make sounds, and do all sorts of things. I wanted to create the perfect balance of reminding her to breathe when she forgot, but I didn't want to be too much. I wanted to touch her at the right moment when it could help release something, but not so much she was distracted from her own experience. So I spent a lot of the time there, but also In short, I in my head second guessing myself. When I thought of her blissed out state holding space for me, I relaxed more and more and taught my body how to know that just being there was enough. To watch someone that closely, every single breath, was amazing. I could tell I have so much to learn! And I honored to have held space for her experience.

We closed shortly afterwards in a circle, and the teachers encouraged us to cultivate our forgiveness practice with everyone who came up in our minds and hearts over the weekend. Suddenly, it was over, hugs were happening, I headed to my car and struck out on the 5 hour drive back home so I could make it back in time rest overnight and prep for Bay to Breakers with my honey. To say that there was a culture shock in the transition is an understatement.

Looking back, I really admire Dana and Ashanna. They embody symbiotic female teachers who work together seamlessly, almost telepathically. They are a fantastic team and full of heart. I loved how Ashanna said our job was to be like Christ and only "see those we worked with as healed already". I loved how she invited us to imagine how it would have been to grow up in a womb where the mother believed with all her heart that her body was a sacred temple and that her purpose was love ... and was surrounded vibrationaly by an entire community which contributed to the same thought atmosphere... I also loved how she invited us to step into a lifestyle of "the undefended heart". This whole event is right on track with my own heart-expansive path of women's empowerment. I am utterly moved and shaken to the core. I can't wait for more!

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

 

Clarity Breathwork Experience at Stewart Mineral Springs Retreat (Part 3 of 4)

This is part 4 of an account I wrote about the Level 1 Clarity Breathwork Retreat. To catch up, check out parts 1 and 2 .

The days took on a rhythm: group breakfast, a solo morning walk by the river, group freeform movement to warm up, one-on-one self inquiry, goddess focused kirtan to open and align our intentions, presentation by the facilitators on breathwork philosophy, a breathwork session and group process, 1.5 hours of solo time for me going between the mineral springs, sauna and creek, another group session, dinner and solo time for me spent in contemplation and Theta. As my companion through it all I held fast to the intriguing citrine crystal I got on the way into Mt. Shasta. It tickled my senses and supported me with it’s personality and insights. I also used a Mt Shasta flower essence for Angelica and did daily angel readings for myself for continued insight.

On my Friday morning walk by the river, I came upon a partnership tree. It was clear the two trees were lovers and had teachings on how to be two living as one. I sat with the tree/s for a while and felt into it’s experience of being wound so intimately with another. Wordless knowledge…

In session I had a huge healing. We worked with one person to share the story of our birth, speaking specifically about the energy in the air during conception, what the feeling atmosphere was between our parents and also in mom during pregnancy, what the birth experience was like including any drugs, forcepts, home birth, natural birth, hispital experience, etc was like, and what happened immediately after our birth. I realized in telling my story that I my mom transmitted some genetic beliefs to me about men based on her relationship with my father. There was definitely a specific feeling tone to her relationship with my father, certain things shared and not shared, emotions held in and strong beliefs which she held at the time about men. I also sensed that the epidural which was used at birth may be connected to something, but it was unclear.

To begin our breathwork, we lined up our sleeping bags and blankets in two lines, lying “head to head”, with a passageway through the center for the teachers and assistants to walk up and down and give each person assistance as needed. A typical group session involves one hour of sustained circular breathing and the assistants and teachers walking around and spending a bit of time with people as needed.

I laid down and began with no particular objective in mind. I kept at it for at least 15-20 minutes with not much shift in consciousness, fighting off the frequent urge to relax and breathe normally. Soon I felt a familiar vibrating sensation in my hands which indicated the energy was moving! My mouth felt dry from all the intense breathing with an open mouth. I felt some kind of mucous in the back of my throat, almost like a membrane. It took some effort to keep breathing open my lungs. I stuck with it though, and my arms and hands started vibrating more strongly. An assistant came over and gently placed a finger to my heart and I felt an explosion of emotions surge through me~ sadness, hurt, anger and aloneness. The tears just started flowing and rolling out like mad, I kept breathing and the assistant touched a tissue to the sides of my face, gently cooing some soft words. I felt completely nurtured and supported and just allowed the emotions to flow. Then she moved on and I was left journeying into my own experience.

I called on some angelic assistance and felt a massive being of TENDERNESS visit me, just pouring the sensation of complete tenderness into every cell of my body. I got a clear transmission that for me to understand the true mystical teachings of the Law of Tenderness, I needed to heal my connection to the divine masculine. This would allow me to welcome in compassion and nurturing at a level never before experienced. I just let it all surge through me, feeling absolute clarity that actual angels as emissaries of nurturing and compassion were there by my sides, holding my hands and feet, radiating light and healing energy into my cells.

Then suddenly I felt a hand on my right shoulder. It was the male assistant. The feeling of his hand on my shoulder while I was crying, just completely present, sent me into a wave of more tears. Just his sitting with me, quiet, saying nothing, hand on my shoulder, seemed to be educating me with a new feeling I had never had: a man present for my emotions, caring, nurturing, no agenda to fix, rationalize, change the subject or run away. Just there. Warm. Breathing. Witnessing. Present. A new sensation. It was like all the cells in my body were breathing a soft, “a-ha!”

He had one hand on me and I could sense another hand on the woman to my right who was in a super intense fit of breathing, crying and moaning. It was interesting because as I heard her wails of pain, I realized those sounds were the sounds of my self who didn’t trust men. The heart-wrenching grieving and fearful cries was what I was choosing to let go of. So it was this amazing experience to feel the assistant’s warm love, truly as an reoresentative of mankind, my own conscious realization that trust in men’s availability to be present was possible, and hear the sounds of the fearful woman, embodying all the pain and grief which I had felt with my limiting beliefs.

Soon some soothing music came on and we were encouraged to turn on our sides and slowly relax our breath and come back. It took me a long time, and as I sat up, everything looked the way it does when you are on drugs with depth perception a bit off, my hands still buzzy, my heart so open from feeling such depths of emotion and a very sleepy-dreamlike awareness. I felt so dazed, gifted, inspired and blessed.

To have such a profound healing around the divine masculine and visitations from such powerful emissaries of love…. Wow! These heart beings clearly indicated that my path was to BE LOVE through service, but to be it, I had to feel it fully, for everyone, including MANkind. Until I could clear all my issues around men, and beyond that, move into a place of divine partnership, intimacy and co-creative play, I could never truly anything of value to women on their own path of empowerment.

Moments later we were released for “lunch”, meeting back 2 hours later. I walked out into the sunshine feeling very raw and decided to skip food and go straight to the baths to keep “cooking” everything going on inside. An hour and a half of dream-state medicinal waters, sauna and river dunks and suddenly I had 10 minutes to get back to the workshop. I had a few bites of food and returned, feeling bowled over and ready for a nap.

We met back, danced together to warm up and then broke into groups again for self-inquiy. It is hard to recall what we spoke of,  but I do remember that the insights continued to roll in, most completely unexpected. I left the evening session feeling certain that I was in the perfect place at the perfect time. All the life changes and evolution required it! After dinner I wrote, “Theta Healing to Heal Family Memories”, using Theta Healing to program some new sensations, feelings and beliefs into my body.  It felt like an AMAZING integration from the day’s realizations…

At night I dreamt of my x-husband for the first time in a long time. I don’t remember what it was about, but I awoke feeling as if the work I was doing with “global” man was all connected on a deep level. I sensed I had some forgiveness work to do with myself and him around my marriage, and left it at that until I got home and had more time.

Continued in Part 4...

Clarity Breathwork Experience at Stewart Mineral Springs Retreat (Part 2 of 4)

This is part 4 of an account I wrote about the Level 1 Clarity Breathwork Retreat. To catch up, check out part 1.

I went to Stewart for a Clarity Breathwork Retreat. Clarity Breathwork is a gentle type of breathing which releases stress from the body. It is a form of circular breathing, including a deep inhalation followed immediately by a relaxing exhale, again followed directly by a deep inhale. The pace is sustained as opposed to leisurely and it takes place through the mouth (as opposed to the nose). You are usually lying down. 

Dana and Ashanna were the event facilitators. Dana holds the energy of Sarasvati, and is a master of wind instruments. Her hypnotic flute playing was spectacular and viscerally moving. She travels the world to places like Bali to facilitate breathwork, sacred dance and divine feminine events. Ashanna was her student 20 years ago and is now a co-facilitator. Ashanna does breathwork, Watsu, and Lightbody Activation seminars. Together they hold a beautiful dance of collaborative partnership.

I didn’t really read the retreat description in too much detail before arriving. I had already had a set of 10 sessions with another practitioner, Maggie Ostara, who first introduced me to the breathwork as a “bonus” experience added to Awakening Your Light Body Course. At that time I had a massive breakthrough, on par with the type of experience induced by Ecstacy, where I felt like I was truly LOVE, in every cell. I cried and cried, felt my angels around me transmitting information into my DNA and had a complete heart-opening which inspired massive life changes. My later set of 10 sessions with her provided tremendous realizations around my true essence, letting go of major fears and self doubts, clearing traumatic past life experiences, connecting with my guides and much more. I left every session feeling hyper-alert, full of tenderness and connection to the divine, heart blasted open and cellularly changed.

I assumed that this retreat would more of the same… so I didn’t anticipate the whole birth trauma processing and clearing which was a large part of the event. I had cruised the website, felt an instant connection with the title, “Breatheinlovecom”, looked at the facilitator images which I strongly resonated with and (I thought) skimmed the event description. If I had read the material with a bit more focus, I would have seen that this was the first in 4 professional trainings to become a Clarity Breathwork Practitioner. This first event focused on clearing birth trauma. The thing is, when breathwork began to be practiced vigorously in the 1970’s, a startlingly large number of those involved experienced full-blown regressions back to their birth experience, along with tremendous emotional releases. Participants were able to “connect the dots” between limiting beliefs and emotional patterns in their current lives with experiences in the womb, birthing and afterwards. This is why this first professional training delves deep into this realm. 

When I realized where the event focus was heading the first night, I had a voice in my back of my head which said, “okay… these people have issues! I don’t really have anything major to clear because my birth pretty mellow, but I’ll just give myself to this breathing experience and see what happens.” I felt cautious, knowing that by the Law of Attraction we can sometimes create experiences by our mere focus on them. I decided to immediately transmute any negative thoughts into positive by doing Theta on myself while the event progressed. (Theta Healing is an amazing way to turns “lemons” into “lemonade” by upleveling any challenging beliefs to the frequency of Source.)

From the first very night of introductions, I had tremendous insights that made the whole trip worthwhile. I realized that any fears or doubts I have around “rising up” to become a women’s empowerment coach, inspirational speaker and retreat facilitator were misplaced. Just from hearing Ashanna’s introduction, I got that by shifting my focus onto “heeding the call of service” and tby aking the focus off of me-me-me, the next steps can be easy, fun and thrilling! Who was I to not be an inspirational speaker, writer and retreat facilitator? Wasn't it just as egocentric to get caught in a tailspin of questioning myself as opposed to honoring my intuitive urgings? I knew I was exactly where I was supposed to be. Before going to sleep, I wrote “Theta Healing for Surrendering to New Life Path”, and felt a huge integration and excitement for what was to follow. This was shaping up to be an amazing experience...

Read on in Part 3!

Clarity Breathwork Experience at Stewart Mineral Springs Retreat (Part 1 of 4)

Driving up to Mt. Shasta was  magical. I listened to some inspiring audios, including Women on the Edge of Evolution talks. So my mind was already surging with divine feminine inspiration, profound realizations and excitement by the time the mountain came into view. Gorgeous!

I wasn’t expecting so much snow on it and it felt very regal and icy in the distance. It had it’s telltale extra-terrestrial type clouds overtop and around it, fueling my imagination. There is lore that says that Mt. Shasta is connected to other major sacred sites by underground tunnels, that ancient Lemurians and ascended masters live within it, and are doing transformative work on behalf of the planet. It is also said that each of several sacred sites around the world holds an evolutionary energy key.  Once you are called to each place, including Shasta, it can stimulate deep, spiritual awakening and DNA activation. Native peoples have never lived on Mt. Shasta because they consider it so powerful. Shamans and lightworkers often go there to do their training. They say that the tunnels within the mountain creates sounds which teach. A short visit is considered plenty since the area is so activated.

I spent some time at Berryvale, the local organic food market, had lunch, and stocked up on some items to bring to the retreat. I ran into a local hooper, Kara Maia, and it was neat to catch up and hear about her evolving adventures. Next I stopped by the Middle Earth Crystal Room, talked with the beings in there for about an hour and enjoyed myself immensely. Finally, I cruised by Soul Connections and got sucked in for a few hours with their amazing collection of books, statues and other metaphysical odds and ends. I picked up some magnificent crystals who called out to me: a rainbow-filled intergalactic tantric twin citrine who wanted to be held in my hand during the retreat, a “Y” Lemurian crystal which wanted to teach me about the softness of yin based partnership, two twinkling polished twin Lemurians who wanted to live together on one purple pillow as “crystal mates” and one soul family cluster who wanted to teach me how to attract and collaborate with those on the same path. It was interesting to note that most of the crystals I was being magnetized to now a days were no longer “loners” but those comfortable in relationships…hmmm! Then onwards! I kept driving to Weed, California, only 5 miles away, where the hot springs were.

When I first arrived at Stewart Mineral Springs, I felt a moment of pause. I am a bit spoiled when it comes to hot springs centers. Having spent so much time at Esalen and other well established sites, this one was considerably more rustic. I passed a few of dilapidated trailer homes before entering and had a moment’s hesitation about what to expect. While totally rustic and unassuming in it’s construction, accommodations and services, I was totally blown away by what I discovered! 

Over the next few day, I discovered that the water is hugely medicinal (you can only experience 30-45 minutes max per day or your skin may react to the high mineral content with a rash). Matsuru Emoto visited last year, took some amazing images of the water crystals here and announced that it was the second most pure water source in the world. I also picked up copy of the water analysis and was surprised by the diversity and magnitude of the mineral content. The corners of each side of the magnified water crystal look like they are meditating buddhas!

The bathhouse is feels like a women’s temple, even though co-ed. You enter through the office, stocked with flower essences, hand-crafted herbal aphroditic facial oils and lotions, jewelry, art, home baked organic yummies, ascended master images, CDs, etc.  I was greeted by a sparkling and smiling bath attendant who ushered me into the back area by a massive grid of crystals and a roaring fireplace. There was activated water and tea available. I entered my own private bath room with a claw foot tub, filled it up, got in and soaked. I imagined grids and flashes of light as crystals in the water soothed, nourished and re-aligned my own body’s energy grid. I focused on breathing deeply… In the background women’s goddess chants and drumming was playing. Outside I could hear the loud rushing of the stream through the woods. In the tubs next to me, I could hear women blessing their water and singing. I felt like I was in another time and place.

After the 10 minute max soaking time allowed for first-timers, I went into the massive cedarwood sauna. It was a giant room with a roaring primevil fireplace in the center with leaping bright flames visible through the glass front. The back wall of the sauna had a massive “Y” crystal lodged in it (which amplifies feminine energy). It glowed dimly with some kind of illumination from beneath. There was a massive stack of firewood in back and dim red rope lights gently illuminated from beneath planks. The air was hot, dry and clean feeling and smelled strongly of cedar and sage. I felt as if I had entered a magical purification chamber. What a sensuous experience!

After I got very hot and sweaty, I left the sauna and went out the back porch area down to the creek. I tried not to see (though couldn’t help noticing) a sign which announced the water temperature as 37 degrees. Down the stairs there was a small pool created where the snow-melted water gathered from the stream before plunging down to continue on it’s path of descent. I prayed before entering for purification and got in and out 3 times quickly. It was numbingly cold, invigorating and enlivening. A beautiful white angel statue overlooked the pool with a smile. I sensed the water talking to me. My skin tingled. Then I began the whole soak-sauna-plunge routine again twice more to complete for the day. Each round, my skin felt awakened and alive, my thoughts slowed even more and I entered a meditative state. I focused on breathing and imagining light entering my body. This was my daily bathhouse circuit routine while there.

The land at Stewart Mineral Springs is completely alive, instilling a sense of hyper-sensitivity. Unexpected messages from the land reveal themselves frequently! During one of my morning walks I happened upon a magical set of tree lovers who whispered secrets of divine partnership and unity. I also saw amazing rock beings, flowers and deer who spoke of gentleness and innocence. There are mostly women running the center and they are vibrant and kind. Every night I had profound dreams. I was so moved that I lost any urge to sneak out and drive up the actual mountain of Shasta during any possible free time, knowing the land here was totally connected to that energy. I wanted to get intimate with one place and go deep. I had arrived a day early to get acclimated and was so glad I did! It allowed lots of time to do Theta, walk the land, do the bath-sauna-creek routine and prepare myself.

My first night I continued to read my Theta Healing manual in my cabin, muscle testing myself for beliefs as I went so I could clean things up. I was surprised to find myself testing “yes” on “I am a victim”, so I wrote "Theta Healing for Power". I also found myself testing positive for, “I am alone” so I wrote, “Theta Healing for Connecting to Vibrant Community”. I also found myself testing positive for, “I have to be alone to be with God”, so I wrote, “Theta Healing to Release Past Life Vows as Monk/Nun”. Phew! It felt like such a release. I realized how important it was to get away from my everyday life to have time to go inward…

See photos here...

Read on in Part 2!