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Intentionally Create a Sense of Belonging

I am surprised by the number of women I speak to who reveal that they feel alone. Words I often hear used are different, separate, isolated, and apart. The irony is that separation is a total illusion, a complete story. We fuel it with our own imagination and stories of why we are "outside the group". 

For most of my life I chose to live with this story. I focused on how I was different instead of how I was the same. My attention lingered on "staying safe" and comfortable apart from others. Over the past year, I have begun to take down the illusionary walls and it feels amazing!

It is time for a major revolution in consciousness.  What if every woman took it upon herself to be a beacon of welcoming, of cherishing, or nurturing, of generous loving? What if a major goal of your life was to create a feeling of being truly seen, accepted and loved in those people around you? We can start with the those in our families and households. Then our own communities, in our own neighborhoods. Then we can extend out to unknown people we pass on the street. And then even further...

Deliberately seek ways to collapse stories of difference with others. Retrain your brain to seek points of connection. Cultivate a sonar which identifies what is you share in common with anyone you meet. Listen deeply and share from your heart. Become a genius at taking in the gaze of others while breathing deeply and giving your undivided gaze as a gift. Become the source of all the acceptance you seek from others! If all else fails, use your imagination and make up stories of why you do belong, why you are loved and why you are a part of the community! 

If you commit to this one change of attitude, you will be amazed at the miracles which unfold!

Riding the Year of the Tiger

In February we went into the Chinese Year of the Tiger. Do you feel it? Can you sense the major energetic difference from the Year of the Ox? I can. Tune in. Take some time to think about how you can use the natural vibrational frequency of this year to benefit your life. Below are some thoughts I have about tigers and what they have to teach and give us in February 2010-2011.

Primal.Tigers are primal. They are in touch with the natural rhythms of the earth, including the land, weather, sound, smell and they have keen eyesight. Their entire beings are connected to their senses. They are one with their environment and can anticipate movement and change. They live, absolutely riveted in the present moment.

How can you get in touch with your own primal pulse? How can you nurture your sense of connectedness to your environment, your family, friends, passions and work? How can gain more information about what matters most to you so you can leap on opportunity at a moment’s notice?

Intuitive. Tigers don’t second guess themselves. They either do something or they don’t. What are your gut instincts telling you? What dream project wants to be birthed? What relationships want to begin or end? What dreams want to be manifested NOW? Let go of psychoanalyzing your instincts. Let go of any story of inadequacy. Forget the story of being confused. Let go of everything that distracts you. Confidently own your intuition without needing approval from anyone. Let that intuition guide you to immediate action!

Focused. Tigers are focused. If need be, they will prowl and stalk their prey for hours. Time disappears because they are focused completely on their desires. How can you immerse yourself in complete devotional observation of your desires? Can you manifest your dreams as if your life depended on it?

Powerful. Tigers have supercharged physical strength and prowess. They have lean bodies with strong muscles. They have incredible dexterity, speed and agility. What are you doing to build your own physical strength this year? How are you tending to your health in good nutrition and exercise?  A powerful body will carry powerful dreams into reality.

Follow Through. Tigers follow through. Weather it is mating, birthing, sleeping,  playing, nurturing, hunting or defending their territory, they do what needs to be done. Tigers don’t procrastinate, mope, over plan or wait until “something” is ready. Tigers act. Now! What is asking for immediate action in your life? How can you leap?

I am loving the dynamic, firey energy that tigers are bringing into my 2010. I am already taking action on new projects which have been sitting on the shelves for years. I encourage you to do the same! Now is the time! Feel free to leave a comment to share your own experiences of the Year of the Tiger with me...

 

 

 

 

Owning My Power, Realizing My Dreams

The way I see it is this: I have a responsibility. Inspired visions from an imagination on fire beg for manifestation in the material world. Dreams aren't made for sleeping on. They visit with purpose. They are alive. And they select their lovers with precision.

I long for enchantment and sparkling miracles. I fantasize about the fantastical and outrageous. And yet, when they begin to fantasize about me, when these eternal forces whisper their secrets in my ears, why do I shrink myself too small to receive?

There are lots of stories I've told myself: "I'm confused", "I don't know the next step", "what will people think?". The question is, what is the payoff? What is being nourished by these tales? The truth is, stories about my imperfection and inadequacy are energy leaks. They zap my bliss. They drain luminosity.

Who am I to claim I am inadequate? Who am I to hide behind the excuse of not being ready? Who am I to hold back with the excuse that no one will come? It's arrogant, really. It's rude, immature and entirely disrespectful. It's a soul level insult.

Today I have decided that enough is enough. It's time. I've got a lot of good ideas. More are lining up outside the door. It's time I roll out the welcome mat, invite them in and feed them.

This is really the purpose of my trip here to Kauai. I am here to love my calling and let it lead me down an unknown path. I am here to open my heart and amplify it's glow. I now promise to love my dreams and callings as precious, purpose and on time!

Affirmations for Luminous Communication

I've been undergoing a re-bith in the way I speak to others, peeling off layers of censorship and holding back. Somewhere along the way, I picked up the habit of editing. Part of being in the healing lands of Kauai for me has washing this all away. If I've learned anything it is this: trying to control feelings and words in anticipation of other's perceived reactions doesn't serve.

As I write this, I'm listening to Shine by Tina Malia and Shimshai. So magical and gentle... this song sounds the way that my heart feels now~ open to letting this magical island of Kauai show me the way to communicate from my heart.I love you, Kauai! You are so beautiful and luminous! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

-I embrace my path as a starseed! I am here to uplift, inspire and elevate the emotional frequency of the planet!

-I magnetically attract crystalline light surfers who speak my language.

-I can easily communicate my intergalactic purpose to anyone of any belief system in language which they can easily understand and relate to.

-I enjoy talking to those of different belief systems because it invites me to inhabit a higher level of clarity.

-I speak to the best in everyone around me.

-It is easy to speak in an authentic way which conveys abstract ideas in tangible ways.

-I am a universal translator of joy!

-I allow myself to reveal when I feel vulnerable, afraid, unsure or tender because I know it creates more points of honest connection.

- I adore using words as textural art, crafting poetic and luminous phrases that embody my message.

- Communication is one of my highest art forms! I savor the opportunity to be more creative, transparent and eloquent!

-I understand that I am inspired to say things in new ways for a reason.

-I cancel and clear all reasons for holding back radiance!

- I savor the vibration of the words I chose and languish in their colors and tones.

- My communication is like music- it stimulates the nervous system of everyone around me in pleasing and pleasurable ways.

-I am a genius at commuicating the core essence of my feelings, thoughts and emotions and at perceiving the essence of others.

Affirmations for Enchantment with Life

I feel an incredible lightness of being here on the islands. There is a deep softening. Last night I was listening to this track and these ideas came to me in a gentle stream, pouring into my consciousness...

-I breathe in angelic consciousness, feeling my heart glow!

- I breathe deeper, inhaling exhileration, exhaling radiance.

-I breathe in the delicious energy of the earth and feel my emotions soften.

-I bask in the shining brilliance of the sun. My cells are becoming brighter and more charged in every moment.

-I open my heart, breathe in tender love and unfurl my beauty...

-It's easy to be luminous, light-charged and generous with my love.

-I let the divine presence of the highest ascended masters beam forth from my eyes!

-I savor each breathe as holy, a miracle of life.

- I allow my gaze to linger as I look deep into the eyes of those around me. I see Source! I cherish!

-I pray that those I meet are infused with the love of Source and that they know they are loved on a cellular level.

-I pulse beauty-love to the food I eat. I send glowing sacred symbols into each piece and send thanks to those who provided me with nourishment.

-I ride waves of bliss with deeper and deeper breaths, giving myself fully to life and loving the gift of being alive.

-I inhabit the furthermost vibrational expansion of my potential with spiritual confidence and magesty.

-I am am devotee of life force energy!

- I prioritize my luminescence!

- I allow the beautiful earth to nurture and support my whole being.

-My body feels deeply! My emotions to dance playfully! My mind to opens to the vastness of the cosmos!

Becoming a Living Sanctuary

I'm preparing

To be a sanctuary

Pure and holy

Tried and true

With thanksgiving

I'll be a living sanctuary

For You

-Donna Delory's song, "Sanctuary"

Inspired by this beautiful chant, I have been contemplating the idea of becoming a living, breathing sanctuary for the divine. This is now my intention~ vesseling. It is amazing how holding this simple awareness changes everything in my experience. I listen with the ears of someone seeking to fill up with sounds of alignment. I breathe to fill every blood vessel with expansive space to receive. I look with eyes searching only for beauty. I tune the harmonics of my voice to transmit the frequency of love. I eat to purify and nourish. I drink to saturate the miracle of my body with life. I dance to absorb and radiate light. I dress to adorn... everything becomes a prayer, alive with meaning and purpose. So grateful!

Becoming My Own Soul Mate

"As you mature spiritually, you ask a different set of questions. Instead of, 'Where can I find love?' you ask, 'How can I radiate love?" You transcend wanting to be loved... it shifts from desperately asking, 'Isn't anybody going to ever love me?' to 'How can I manifest and express more love in my life?' Then, from the center of your Self there will radiate a divine love so potent that you will begin to fall in love with loving and no longer limit yourself to having to have an object of love... you love for the sake of loving."

-Michael Beckwith in his book, Spiritual Liberation

As I read this, I got chills all over my body. Earlier in the day I had been sitting in my portal in meditation, visualizing myself surrounded and infused by light and had a big realization.... I am ready to be my own soul mate! Michael's passage was the icing on the cake of my realization.

I've been living alone in Mill Valley for 9 months now. There have been ups and downs and lots of euphoric realizations. It has been a time of great introspection and letting go. 

The scoop: I have never been outside of relationship with a man for this long since I was a teenager~ generally soon after leaving one relationship I have gone right into the next. So over the past months, I been doing things I always dreamed of. Creating a lifestyle of joyful, bliss, and fun! My days revolve around dance, hooping, yoga, raw foods, hiking, meditating, and spiritual growth. I've been cleaning up my business and bringing deep organization to my life and thoughts. I've been cultivating new interests in areas too~ technology, home improvement, cooking and gardening. I've been connecting with my essence and cultivating more self-worth than ever. It has been amazing to find, and live by my own rhythm...

And here is the biggest insight I've gained: For years I have adapted and tailored who I am to fit into romantic relationships. I've made subtle, small choices to fit in. I've modified myself in anticipation of what my partners' thoughts and needs were. I've noticed what my partners' loved and if he didn't love something I loved, I've slowly quieted that passion in me to avoid imagined conflict. I've allowed my partners' doubts about my passions to create doubt within me and distanced myself as a result. And then I've stored up resentment for not allowing myself to be who I truly am, and blamed my partners' for my lack of courage. To distract myself from the reality of abandoning myself, I focused on the things which I thought needed to be fixed to improve the quality of my partners' live. And then I would retreat from all this conflict into overwork to avoid facing the disaster being created. WOW! 

So... fast-forward to sitting in my sauna the other morning. There I was. I was breathing deeply, sweating and feeling open and peaceful. And then, suddenly it happened. I met myself. It was the same way you might meet a new love of your life. It was unexpected and surprising and exhilerating all at once. In my mind's eye, I saw myself as a multidimensional being of beauty on every level. I saw the cosmic lessons in every so called "challenge" I've experienced. I saw all the gifts! There was no more, "one day when..." I instantly felt an incredible level of warmth, protectiveness, and elation. Fireworks, magic, the whole fairytale was already happening inside my own heart! 

I felt fascinated and I wanted to know more. I was excited and full of anticipation about the adventures we would have together: me and me. I felt unconditional acceptance flow through me, for me, on every level... the quality and purity of love that I imagine Creator feels. In an instant, I felt called to deeply cherish myself for the rest of my life. I was ready to propose to myself: commitment to my own soul forever. With every breath I felt bathed in the nourishment of love! It was a profound moment. I realized I don't need to "find" a man ever again. All I need to do is radiate true love and I will always be surrounded by it! Everything I need will always come to me!

I am ready to be the person I have been looking for my whole life, meeting all my own needs on every level for love, tenderness, affection, appreciation, presence, compassion, generosity, honesty, authenticity... everything! I am ready to be my own best friend, confident, and cheerleader. I am ready to be connected to the deepest essence of me at all times. I am ready to partner with my soul on a mission of divine love, focusing on good times and fun. 

When I love myself, my life is full of love! When I focus on beauty, all I can see in others is beauty. Ifocus on appreciation. I allow, enjoy, bask and give thanks. I can trust that my vibration will align me with my highest good and that all is well. It's quite lovely how it all works...

Can't wait for the next cosmic insight. xoxo

Allowing Expansion

I AM TELLING A NEW STORY!

Soothing vibration, high-frequency and zinging with life

It is giggling, connected, devout and silly 

A fantasy adventure of paradise here now

My tale is powerful and passionate and playful

Blessed by billions of angels and shining guides of light!

LOVE, bliss, magic, fun, inspiration and pleasure be here now!

Each word settles on my tongue as I consider wether to share it

I taste and notice the flavor~ is it sweet enough for me?

Is this story a good playmate for my inner child?

Does it open my heart, launch my imagination and make my soul sing?

Is this something I want to savour for a while, eat and grow new cells from?

I spit out anything less than brilliant and yummy

And allow silence.

I'm a comedy crafter, magician of myth and conscious creator

A wild woman of wise and watchful wording

Sculpting powerfully positive phrases of joy

I tell a FANTASTIC story!

It is an INCREDIBLE story!

It is a BEAUTIFUL, DELICIOUS and DIVINE story!

I focus on soul connections, ecstatic union, wonder, awe and elation

I invite miraculous coincidences, synchronicities and extreme luck

Everything always works out for me with enchantment~

The ultimate expression of divine dreamy love 

Boons beyond the biggest treasures in the universe

Joy upon joy upon joy upon joy 

Union with the Divine in quantum leaps

Communion with nature amplifying to telepathic

Accelerated presence, poise, purpose, creativity, and always, 

Becoming a beacon of LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

Loving this moment

Loving the next moment

Loving all past moments

Loving all possible future moments

Allowing, allowing, allowing...

Laughing, nourishing, basking...

When I talk I search for excuses to say, 

"You know, I love it when..."

"What I really love about you is..."

"I really like it when..."

"My favorite part about that is..."

"I feel so connected when..."

"I feel so good when..."

"You know what I really admire about you?"

"Isn't it wonderful when..."

Yay!

Trusting Intuition

I trust my decisions.

I cherish my inner guidance.

My inner urgings are all the authority I need.

When I make a choice, I make it with my whole being.

Every cell of my body is onboard.

Every bone inside me has faith.

Ever fiber of every muscle has moved into alignment.

Every brain cell is rewired to support this focus.

New understanding flows through my blood.

Renewed enthusiasm pulses through my synaptic pathways.

My heart beats in a joyful rhythm of agreement.

Newly birthed cells are bathed in a vibration of accord.

A resonance of clarity, determination and focus pervades my aura.

I am flooded with deliberate intention!

I walk in symphony with my sixth sense.

My gait surrenders to harmonize with my instinct.

Every breath extended to make space for purpose.

My eyes re-calibrate to focus exclusively on my new desires.

My guidance is dependable, reliable and punctual.

She always shows up on time.

She is an absolute genius, an expert on everything.

She follows me around 24 hours a day.

She always has a wise insight to share.

She shares her knowledge across space and time.

Tenderly nurturing my enlightenment.

Coaching me to radiance, health, love, compassion, forgiveness, hope...

I have confidence!

I have faith!

I allow!

I align!

I Am!

Relaxing To Save the World: Insights from Kuan Yin

Kuan Yin is a Buddhist deities who represents the ultimate expression of compassionate loving kindness. She is said to hear and respond to all the cries of beings requesting aid. She is often depicted with a vessel of amrita, the nectar of compassion, or with a spiritual dragon. Kuan Yin is one of many Bodhisattvas, a fully enlightened being devoted to assisting humanity's liberation from pain, suffering and rebirth before entering the divine cosmic realms of eternity.

Kuan Yin has been a primary teacher goddess for me for the last 10 years, providing an amazing role model of generous, radiant all-encompassing, super nurturing LOVE! Her delicate femininity is powerful in a tender way. Her soft gentle spirit gains intergalactic strength from it's softness. She is the ultimate expression of sweet service through devotion and caring.

I've had the above statue of Kuan Yin for the past two years want to share some downloads I have had around it. I got it at a time when I tirelessly worked, day and night, weekdays and weekends to build my business and meet every customer's needs, at the expense of my own personal life, family and marriage. They were intense times full of the contrast of stress, lonliness and exhaustion ~ all wrapped up in false ideas of service, healing and success for me.

The first time I saw this statue, I stood stark still and received a major transmission about the power of the divine feminine. It was something like this...

True divine feminine energy benefits the planet through maximizing receptivity.  Honor yourself and the planet by giving from your own luminous energetic overflow. The cosmic feminine surrenders to restful replenishment and absorbs nourishing solar and lunar energy through basking. Though conscious languishing, you can store up an intergalactic powerhouse of life force energy which can be deliberatly and lovingly shared with an ever expanding number of people through grace and flow.

In short, I caught a glimpse of the savioress of the universe doing her work through chilling out! She is soaking up prana through rest and self care and from this place of shimmering radiance- sharing. This was quite an opposite to how I had been functioning at the time...

Since my big life transition in February, I have been crafting a life based on this model as an experiment to discover how I can allow myself to move into the ultimate, healing and shining goddess vibration.

In short, I've been slowing down. 

After arriving back from teaching in the UK and after getting back from my book tour, I've been developing a yoga practice of once or twice per day when possible. I've been surrendering into my muscles and bones and breath and feeling sensations sing through my body. I've been taking time to prepare nourishing foods for myself like green juices, greens smoothies, dehydrated greens. I planted a kale garden. I've been taking time to clean out closets and organize my home and business. I've been taking long walks and doing lots of dancing. I've been hooping under the open sky at music festivals and making new friends. I've been investing time into Abraham seminars, reading books and jumping on my trampoline. I've been taking saunas about every other day, doing focus wheels, journaling, making piles of things to give away and sell and creating collages. I've been doing meditations, taking journies with my crystals and contemplating what I want to do, be and have in my life. I've been singing. I've been reading about the craft or writing and working on my first novel. I've been soaking up the beauty of visionary art and feeling deep appreciation for this life I live.

During all of this healing, I have felt myself growing full to bursting with inspiration. The urge to sing, write, paint and create visionary and healing projects has been overflowing. I've gotten very specific ideas about things to do, make and bring into material reality. I have daily a-ha's about how I can be more fully through creative expression who I am so I can fully vessel what I am here to share. I am beyond the edge of who I have been, and it is thrilling...

Of course, meanwhile, "work" has somewhat fallen by the wayside. I've left most business matters to my new office manager, Kelsie, who calls me when she has questions. Emails take longer to get answered and phone calls take longer to get returned. The voicemail box has gotten full 3 times and stayed that way for a day or two. The manic, compulsive energy to constantly watch every hoop video, read all related social networking posts, push myself to practice daily, attend every hoop event and "stay on top" of the industry has softened. Basically, I've being doing the bare minimum to keep things flowing for a while, and (the previously unthinkable) delaying in sending out my monthly newsletter. This is the first time in 8 years I have really slowed down...

I've been teaching hoopdance after a long hiatus and cherishing the energy and fun of sharing guidance~ the very reason why I began the whole business in the first place. I also started classes on an amazing platform in a redwood grove across from my house where I feel ancient and powerful energy infusing our experience. I've been loving facilitating the teacher and performance trainings, which again are so close to the empowering reasons why I began this business as well: supercharging goddesses to confidently create space for transformation. All my classes have been sold out and yielding so much energetic return. It feels SO GOOD to be taking care of myself and focusing only on what I do best from overflow...

Of course, I do need to ramp up the biz side of things a bit as debt has accrued from this experiment. But it has been and continues to be a very healing exploration. Honestly, it hasn't even been that intentional. My whole being simply stopped and had to keep stopping every day for spiritual feeding. And thus, the de-ramping began...

So... we shall see where this all evolves to. I feel so grateful for the many wonderful, wonderful people, experiences and things which nourish me every day. I am so happy to be alive! I am so grateful for the gift of being here, to be 36 going on 37, living in Mill Valley, having the most awesome business in the world~ HoopGirl, having my mom nearby, having clean water, having nourishing organic food, having such a sturdy home...ah! So much to be thankful for.  I love my body, I love my world, I love my journey and anticipate delicious tidal waves of joy and love continuing to cascade into my life. I am so grateful to the divine cosmic impulse which inspires me to keep expanding, evolving and stretching the definition of who and what I am. Peace!