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Dolphin Magic and Gemmie Gratitude

Still in Santa Barbara! On Monday I took my hour and half walk along the ocean, doing lightworking affirmations for a card deck I am creating. It was luminous! The sun gleamed off the water. The gorgeous mountains stood in the distance. The waves crashed in again and again with cool water on my feet and the occassional jellyfish here or there. Out of nowhere I started singing!

It was more like the song was singing through me.

It was a chant which felt somewhat native but it also had some starbeing frequencies as well. It felt so healing to just let it pour through me in a language I have never spoken, feeling the hair on my skin stand up with recognition. And the suddenly, a gift. Every day I had been hoping to see dolphins but didn't.

As I looked up from the sand while singing, a whole pod of dolphins came in close to the shore.

I got a smile ear to ear and went further into the water, walking to follow them along the shore. I kept singing, smiling, feeling totally and utterly blessed to be given the dolphin song. They played and swam and I followed them for about 20 minutes until they swam away. I was shimmering with light and feeling completely renewed and nurtured. WOW! I am so blissfully grateful. I wrote out a few more affirmation cards for my deck on the beach and positive phrases downloaded into my brain.

The day continued... off to Maile's place to choose gemstones for my new healing necklace. It was a sea of crystal gems all handcarved. I was so BLESSED to be welcomed into her shrine... Maile is a master gem shaman and very private about who enters her space. The walls were covered with amazing laminated vision boards of beautiful images (genius idea! laminate your vision boards at Kinkos!) and of course, raw and carved gems were everywhere. Lots of beads and lots of gorgeous single bead pendants too. You can order her amazing wares here in case you haven't clicked yet...

The gems were so yummy! She showed me the most DAZZLING piece I think I have ever seen in my entire life -- a multicolored gemstone necklace with all the colors of the rainbow and dozens of types of stones, each with absolute perfect CLARITY and LUMINESCENCE and GLOWING COLOR in every stone, along with a massive spiral carved star quality rose quartz right in the center.

Beholding such radical, mindblowing handrafted gemmie beauty tickled my senses silly!

The carving hut had a strong, clean vibe and she pumped up the volume on her music so she could hear it over the sound of the drill while she carved. Awesome girl power music pulsed as I sat in front of the boxes of beads and let myself be guided, per Maile's advice. She strongly suggested that I release intellectualizing the "benefits" of certain stones and just let myself feel them out. There was only 40 minutes before she had to leave, so I had to work somewhat fast. My creation ended up looking completely different from what I envisioned. My necklace had chrysoprase, blue chalcedony, rhodocrocite, rose quartz, white topaz, pink tourmaline, amythyst, rhodonite and varicite with a very pink overall feel with splashes of blue, gree and purple. I looked up the stones properties afterwards, and most of the emphasis is on LOVE, love and more love, truth, compassion, breaking through limiting belief systems, supporting the feminine intuition and reproductive organs, facilitating change, spiritual evolution and transformation. I've been a bit self conscious about it's appearance -- wondering if I chose "the right" beads since it visually isn't all one color or one theme, but I am letting that superficial concern go and am concentrating on letting it work it's medicine on me. Thank you gemstone fairies! I welcome your sweet healing vibrations into my body! What a gift!

Afterwards I went on a hike up Coldwater Canyon.. a sweet hike with fabulous pools and sunny rocks and trees and wonderful smells of the earth. RENEWED RENEWED RENEWED! I love it up there! I am so glad for the trees and dirt and clean mountain water.

I washed my new necklace in the stream and it felt energetically squeeky clean.

After a long walk I sat down and continued reading Remembering Your Soul Purpose: A Part of Ascension ... a neat book I have been reading for a while. I wrote some more lightworker affirmation cards for my deck while there with my crayola magic markers and index cards... then off to town for a stroll and a girl power movie and sweet sleep. Life is so good!

Paradise Vision

I've been going through all my past tribe.net blogs to compile material for my first spiritual book and happened upon this from Jan 18, 2008. I decided to re-post it here. I love this entry! Since I have been focusing on Heart's Desires, I feel it is good to remind myself of this dream.

I start every day with meditation in an outside area, on the earth in a special grove which I have created as a sacred sanctuary. I begin with my laughter practice~ warming up my abdomen with breathing and sounding exercises. I move into gentle sounds, then giggles, then full blown laughter. I ride waves of heart-warming chuckles for about thirty minutes, cresting, falling, surfing, rolling onto my back and kicking my legs with glee! I am feeling quite sparkly.

Next I got into my breathing meditation and focus on my surroundings. This special place is surrounded by crystals which amplify energetic sensations.The smell of tropical flowers fills my nose and sweetens my breath. I can feel the living green energy of nature beings surrounding me with love, infusing my body and mind with deep healing and connection. I soften my gaze and let my imagination loose… visualizing fairies and nature beings. My heart opens! They speak to me and I see all the magical details of their ethereal bodies… The colors and shapes of the tropical flowers everywhere are intoxicating – purples, reds, yellows and pinks. The shape of the blossoms is sumptuously feminine and exotic. Unusual bird calls echo through the tress and the sun moves across my skin with shadows as the tree branches rustle overhead. A Venusian goddess statue and a circle of flat, perfectly round river rocks creates a central area of bare earth in the tree grotto. There is the tinkling of a hanging seashell and bamboo windchimes blowing in the breeze. There are thick leaved trees surrounding me, a warm breeze, and a sense of paradise. I close with some prayer to the Universal Source, speaking aloud in wonderful poetic words which feel quite yummy to say.

Afterwards, I grab my sac and walk through the mountainous jungle foliage, communing with nature. I cross through a mysterious and magical bamboo forest back into the jungle. I wear hiking sandles which give me a sense of rugged connection to the ground, as I easily traverse inclines. The views are spectacular! The sun shining through the trees makes me feel giddy! I love the heat! I receive clear communication from plants which I pass, and I stop to listen to them frequently. My whole body feels electric and angelically attuned. Sometimes I speak aloud while I walk, asking questions of my guides and listening to my senses for esoteric symbols and other cellular infusions of information. This morning hike invigorates me. I sweat and enjoy my strong muscles and lean body. My walk ends as the path opens up, out of the tress and onto white, powdery, crystalline sand. Ahead of me is the sparkling ocean! I feel refreshed just from sight of the liquid expanse…. I gasp in awe realizing there is even a rainbow in the sky, beginning just over the ridge and connecting over the horizon!

I sit on the sand for a moment and breathe in the sight. I am so thankful! The water rolls up onto the sand with a wonderfully soothing sound. The colors are electric! I grab my snorkeling gear from my sac and wade into the lagoon, protected from the open sea, into warm calm waters which smell of salt. Dolphin friends swim nearby and approach me playfully, coaxing me into deeper waters with their antics. I swim with them in formation for a while, joining the pod and feeling their sonar pulse through my body with clicks and calls which quicken my cleansing, healing … bliss! They transmit geometric symbols into my mind’s eye which exude color and sound. I feel lifetimes, letting go, emotion….

I feel giddy in their presence! They are so big and animated and move very quickly, but when I slow down they also slow down and wait for me. I dive down and swim with them for a while, then surface again, using my legs like a giant mermaid tail. They are so responsive! I speak to them without words and open my senses to hear what they say in response. I pray for the healing of the earth and the ocean together in the water, and I hear their singsong sounds echo all around me. Are they praying with me?

In my imagination, the dolphins tell me that they are angelic beings who subsist on the energy of joy and that play. They love pleasure and affection as their forms of prayer. They soothe my heart with rainbow colored emanations of sound which pulsate and surround my entire body in luminescent, geometric symbols. My DNA unfurls… activation… 12 strands awakening…I move into a waking dream with them where the dolphins teach me ancient secrets about Atlantis and beings from other planets and galaxies… the transmissions are fast, unconscious, magical. The register only as a feeling of bliss in my body… but I don’t know why. Each gorgeous swimmer is surrounded by their own bright, shining underwater angelic sprite-like magical being. Who knew, but even dolphins have guardian angels! I love softening my gaze and letting these visions come to me…

I emerge from the water after an hour long morning swim and collapse on the beach. I feel so happy, but also a bit tired from the vigorous swimming and telepathic communication. The sun beats on my dark skin feels delicious. I reach into my sac for a towel and slather on some coconut based protective butter. My skin glistens with moisture. It smells delicious. I pull out my water bottle and guzzle, then lay back to rest. Breathing deeply, eyes closed, I stretch out and relax. After my mini siesta, I walk up to my fabulous home, which overlooks the ocean with spectacular views and intoxicating colors.

I eat a wonderful assortment of exotic tropical fruits native to this place. The flavors are so delicious that they make my tounge tingle! The shapes and textures of the fruits are mesmerize me with their organic beauty. I drink green nutritive elixirs and nourish my body thoroughly.

Next I wash off. Some days I like to use the outdoor shower or tub, so I can continue to contemplate outside, and some days I use the indoor shower or tub. There is a sense of timelessness. Each moment seems to shimmer as a precious gift. I feel incredibly alive.

I immerse myself in creativity for the next portion of the day. I take the messages I received during meditation, play, prayer and dolphin swimming and record it in images, guided visualizations, magical art pieces and writing. This is my sacred work.. the transmission of channeled messages of light and love, for empowerment, fun and joy. Incredible! What a blessing! I relax, let go, feel, receive and share. I am clear that I am here to serve humanity –help everyone around me realize we all have a divine life mission. To remind everyone of the miracles which surround us daily -- simply by walking my own path, enjoying it so much and sharing the process. My creative projects circulate around the world and millions smile, breathe deeper and enjoy what I have to share. While I do this work-play of creating, by my side is my live angel Chuhuahua whom I call, “Twinkle”. So adorable! She sits there curled up in her own orb of bliss. Her mere presence reminds me to connect with joy in every moment. She is incredibly affectionate, loving and playful.. but also a little Buddha guide as well.

Once a week I spend about 90 minutes checking in with my other businesses to make sure they are all running smoothly and well managed by the brilliant people who support my success. I confirm whatever travel I have upcoming for presentations and engagements and answer the few inquires which have been sent on to me from my staff. I love how amazingly efficient and reliable and professional they all are! Their devotion to doing the best they can allows me so much free time for my own creative work. I am delighted to see how our income has expanded exponentially over the years from pursuing our passions… life is sweet!

The next part of the day is spent nourishing myself again with whole raw foods and loving companionship. What I love about my husband is how unconditionally loving he is. His eyes are always sparkling and he always has something good to say about everything. He is so happy! He always orients me to see the positive in any situation and his contagious laughter is full of open-hearted appreciation for life. He is a miracle maker and a miracle tracker. He is spiritually open and committed to lifelong growth and transformation to embrace his highest potential in this lifetime. He takes total responsibility for his own sense of success and happiness and always has an abundance of everything to share. I also love that he is so commited to expanding his own sense of connection to the Divine because he has lots of insightful and exciting esoteric ideas to share with me. The fact that we are both so passionate about island living, raw foods, health building, radiance, spiritual growth, art, dance, music, love and play is amazing. I love how humble and completely trustworthy he is and how much he gently encourages me to let go of my own ego and rise to a higher level of understanding and right action, but in a super mellow and easygoing way. I love that I can share anything with him and that I feel totally safe, heard and supported. Of course, I love that we are so close in age and that he is ravishingly gorgeous and an incredible lover too!!!

I come together with my husband and we enjoy preparing food together and playing together for several hours. Some days we go snorkeling. Others we go scuba diving. Sometimes we row out in a sea kyak. Others we lounge and fish while reading in a hammock. We get into tickle matches and roll around and kiss lots, like kids. We naturally come together and enjoy time together... then we separate while I dance and hoop, feeling my own moving meditation, while he does his agility exercises on the beach...I love how we both constantly nourish ourselves with restorative practices! Sometime we both just hang out in hammocks side by side, reading. Sometimes we stroll into town and just hang out with all the wonderful people in the community, or take a yoga or dance class. I am constantly inspired by all the artists who surround us, capturing the magic and beauty of the land in images. We take time and talk about the art we see, what aspects we appreciate... it gives us a lot to appreciate together. It is a deep, quiet, loving connection my husband and I have... even without words or contact. We share our creative insights with each and inspire eachother to trust own process more. He shares his own insights and rewards from his own work with me and I feel richer for his devotion to his own passion…. beautiful balance... we have together time and alone time, each of us connecting one-on-one with our own friends as well. I take time every day to reach out to close friends and stay in touch, in person and on the phone and computer... I love my circle of friends, who are each so incredibly talented and inspiring! I am absolutely blessed to be surrounded by so many love-visionaries and joyous leaders!

Today's image is by Flip Nicklin

Dolphins, Whales and the "Heart-Field"

It was nothing like I expected! Talk about quantum healing. After starting off the morning cleaning up unfinished business, I gathered with a group of six (an energy worker, a substitute school teacher, a elder care activities manager, a massage therapist, and a government employee) and Maggie for a day of, "getting in touch with the longing of the heart." It was hard to move my monkey mind from the work I had done prior to arriving... I was spinning with thoughts about what, "other people would think" who had been involved with the situation. Then I realized I had done the best I could, forgave myself, and let go. About 15 minutes in, I felt myself fully present.

It started out with a Maggie channeling a non-physical being named Sheyman who spoke to us at length about manifesting with ease. Then we did exercises to loosen the emotional body. I was then encouraged to choose something tangible for our first manifesting meditation -- as opposed to something abstract -- to get the most out of the exercise.

Before I could think too clearly about choosing something "practical", I envisioned swimming with dolphins and humpback whales. This is an experience I have wanted for some time. I could hear the sound of the water against my snorkel, I could hear the singing of the whale, the blue, blue water and weightlessness of suspension. I could feel my entire body in warm salty water. The sun on my back. We were guided to go up to the soul plane and envision the essence of what we wanted to magnetize.

I was in a shimmering expanse of white light, with may grids and portals. Ahead of me were many luminescent globes, but I focused on a series of blue orbs which almost swam together through the air, moving in sparkling and swirling spirals. The blue energy orbs were dancing! They were full of the energy of laughter, play and joy. The pulsed LOVE. Then I felt the heavier, older whale energy... pulsing Akashic knowledge and wisdom along with nurturing. I played in the energy for a while, letting myself spin and dance with the blue sparkling lights in the white expansive light of corridors. I felt light and free. Again and again, the whalesong echoed through my soul and I envisioned it realigning me. I could hear the dolphin guides giggling and laughing and chanting in high pitched voices in chorus, "We love! We love!" It was like a sonic bath!

Slowly I pulled the sparkling blue energies down through what felt like a membrane, guiding them lower towards the material plane. Once they came through what looked like clouds, suddenly the sparkling orbs exploded into billions of tiny glittering sparks ... microscopic particles humming in a frequency which made my heart feel love, joy, connection. This was the pure essence of dolphin and whale energy in adamatine particles. I drew the billions of energy beings down, into my aura, into my emotional body, and let myself become washed over with the emotions. Yum! Then I continued to draw them into my body, into all the cells, and into every strand of DNA. The helixes lit up like Christmas trees and glowed with a light blue electric light, becoming more whole and complete. I imagined information getting downloaded into my body about how to communicate with dolphins and whales. I saw guidance being given to my sensory body about how to channel their communication. I saw flashes of images where I was transmitting the essence of their teachings to many, many people -- teaching about the essence of the Heart Field. Then we were asked to expand our vision of what was possible. I expanded my vision out from simply chanelling from dolphins and whales to include living in a wonderful, tropical environment. I coul dfeel the sun on my skin. I had a wonderful house with a big garden, the ocean nearby. Delight! And then ... we were called back into the room.

We had a break... journaled... we wandered out in Maggie's garden and ate some arugala from the garden in the sunshine. Everything seemed very sparkly. More talks about manifesting... lunch... dancing in the garden in the sun... then we spoke about the myth of scarcity and how it was an illusory concept created during the advent of capitalism... we talked about the myth of "more being better" and the myth that" scarcity is just the way it is". We all spoke about how these energies have been in our lives. We also spoke of the gremlin of comparison and assumptions that those who have more are happier, live an easier life and have more value... so fascinating!

Then we did some wonderful exercises in partners. One person would begin a sentence in the following way, and then the other would say, "thank you" and then we would switch, back and forth for several minutes.

"A way I believed I was not enough was..."
"A way I believed more was better was..."
"The truth is..."

Amazing, deep and tearful realizations from that exercise.

Then we closed with the last hour doing Clarity Breathwork, an hour of cyclical breathing with a hugely expansive inhalation and a relaxing exhalation, going immediately back into inhalation again. It was an amazing experience! We all lay on the floor with blankets and pillows and began.

My experience... tears, release, realizing how much bigger my heart wanted to be, but it felt as if it was caught in a net. I breathed in some space, saturated my body with air. After a while my hands and arms got really tingly, like pins and needles whenever I moved anything, but I stuck with it and kept breathing. Cycled through some more emotion, feeling surges of love as strong as ecstatcy. Then I saw my angels all around me, cradling my head, hands on my shoulders, smiling as they sat by each hip and foot. I felt wrapped in protection and saftey and love. Then I felt a download of symbols and colors and information in light streams, coming into my body. I was acutely aware that real information was being placed in my body! I could feel the angels so strongly -- the oxygen was making my awareness so acute. I told myself I HAD to remember this, how deep the feeling was. All guidance, all information I could every wish to receive was available to me! All I had to do was breathe!

Then I received an amazing vision of hooping. I saw myself hooping joyfully, with the same blissful love and joy which I had when I first began teaching. I saw certain things about how I taught in the past, I saw the gridwork of an energy pattern I had used to lead students on a journey, and I realized that I had to go back to my roots. I saw suddenly how I could connect the energy and angel work of my current interests directly with hooping in a way which would be accessible and teachable, and I felt a sense of renewal and joyfulness! Coming home. A realization that I didn't need to create either-or, that there can be an "and". For a few moments, everything really seemed to make sense. I also had visions of sharing some very specific things in a retreat, co-teaching with Candice.

Then more incredible surges of love. I thought of people who I have hurt, and people who have hurt me, and sent them beams of love. It suddenly seemed so obvious that love was all that mattered, and I saw myself speaking from my heart, expressing love. I saw love washing away everything. I realized how much bigger my heart wanted to be, how much it wanted to guide me in my life. I saw how fear held me back.

And then ... we were slowly called back. A whole hour. Wow! Maggie had put on some music with soft and gentle lyrics that said something about "you are beautiful..." and my breathing came back to normal, I rolled to the side and just cuddled with myself for a while. When I sat up, I seriously felt as if I was on drugs. I was disoriented in a super-sparkling kind of way where time and space seemed a bit distorted. Space seemed slippery. My body was tingling all over. We shared our experiences in pods.. and closed the day with an "OM". I left feeling raw, open-hearted, and wishing I could hold the awareness...

All I can say is, wow.

p.s.!!!! Wow! I did an online search for Heart Field after I wrote this and found this:
"The Heart Field"

I have heard about this before... but am amazed now by the synchronicity! I sense this is important, but I'm so tired.... more later.