I can't begin to express what a "high" it was to be at Harbin with so many people so utterly devoted to being authentically joyful. Even though everyone at the laughter retreat was very different in age, background, interests and occupation, we all shared a commitment to beaming joy! We had some grumpy days or challenging moments -- the difference was how quickly we were all committed to bouncing back. It was a wonderful feeling of resonance.
Coming back to "reality" has been a wee bit bumpy. Some people in my life seem just as committed to being unhappy, as I am committed to being happy. I have been struggling with this for a while -- how do I retain my joyful shine and lighthearted bliss when surrounded by those who feel so dark and sticky in their emotions?
One thing which I've read over and over again in my angel readings by Doreen Virtue is that the light cannot be diminished in the darkness. She says that the darkness can only become illuminated. One of Doreen's teachers, Bridget, whom I also studied with commented that it is impossible for the fast vibration of light to be dampened when confronted with the dense vibration of darkness. Dr. Kataria also said something similar at the retreat -- he proposed unconditional laughter -- the choice to take responsibility for our own joy by committing to laugh for no reason despite circumstances, people or challenging life events. Wayne Dyer, whom I heard speak recently, said he learned this from St Francis of Assisi - higher energy in the presence of lower energy can never be lowered, the lower can only be elevated higher. Wayne also mentioned a couple other relevant ideas which help me learn the art of beaming light:
"You are in this world, but not of it." - Jesus
"In every moment you can be a host to God or a hostage to your ego."
The last statement makes me realize that the choice to be consistently surrounded by partners of a denser/darker energy does have something to do with my ego, or my perception of who I am in relationship. Is it a lack of self-esteem? Martyrdom? Fear of being met? The compulsion to be a savior of some kind? What if I shift my perception from being afraid that I am going to get dragged down by the depression of another to just being the Divine Light of God? If I embrace the unbreakable and galactic power of Creator energy fully, instead of trying to direct my own sparkling personality, it is sustainable and emerges from an infinate wellspring of Light. When I step into this larger Light, which is absolute and unbreakable, the idea that I could loose my shine becomes laughable! It also provokes me in asking wether I am staying in a challenging situation to feed my ego instead of my Divinity. What do I need to surround myself with in order to nourish and shine my Divine Light authentically?
Doreen Virtue, in her book called Earth Angels, suggests that some people have been born upon the Earth who are fulfilling earthly roles of service to humanity, but who have divine and enchanted origins. One category of people she talks about are Incarnated Angels. I strongly resonate with her description of these beings -- their tendency is to stay in relationship way beyond the length of time that the ordinary person would because they see the divine potential in every partner they are with. They tend to choose partners who are depressive or substance abusers or otherwise challenged and Incarnated Angels give everything they can to try to heal and help the person change. Problems of course arise, however, as the partner rarely wants to be fixed or changed. Meanwhile the Incarnated Angel feels compelled to stay in the relationship, regardless of pain, with a sense of commitment to the healing of the other. Dysfunctional, to say the least! But for whatever reason, this explanation helps me understand things a bit more.
When I woke up this morning a protective prayer came to mind for use whenever I feel confronted by dark energies:
No one can diminish my Light!
My Light is Sacred, Divine Light!
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