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What Men Need to Know About What A Woman Really Wants Pt. 2

 

I offer this second letter in devotion to the divine masculine, on behalf of all women. Life has cracked me open to reveal the pearl of my heart. I offer it to you.

xoxo Christabel

My dear beautiful man,

I long for your desire. My heart melts when I feel genuine urgency in you to be by my side, to share time with me, to touch and connect. I love your persistence. It feels delicious to be sought out, day or night, and to feel the force of God compelling you unstoppably to my side.

I love your responsiveness. When I feel you willing to appear at a moment’s notice, I soften. Knowing that your strength is available and at the ready allows me to let go of defenses. Your dependability is like a massage~ it releases my protections, walls and fears. I am left supple, flowing and ready to receive you.

I hunger for your undivided presence. When you can be with me, and just me, I  relish your essence~ it has a rich, luscious and nourishing quality, like ambrosia. The depth of your focus on me is the depth to which my body melts open to you. Your inability to be distracted from me, makes me crave you more, letting go more, feeling more...

The truth is, I savor your availability~ emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Availability is absolutely mouthwatering to me. Availability is a holy nectar I want to drink deeply from again and again. This tantalizing quality invites me to languish in your presence, to reveal my most tender and hidden sides and to fully bond with you. The solidity of your beingness, your willingness to face our deepest triggers and move hand-in-hand to the other side and the fact that you actually have time in your schedule to explore the vast possibilities of intimacy with me~ is tearfully compelling.

I am deeply touched by your courage to articulate feelings to me. I am astounded by your capacity to witness your mind's stories instead of getting caught up in drama. I ask that you are a pillar for me, reminding me to do the same.  I long to be there for you, as your partner, as a friend, as a listener and to wrap you  up in my arms while you gain gain clarity. I need you to pull me closer instead of push me away when you get scared so I can discover the depths of the feminine within me.

I crave the tender, precious safety you create by your mere presence. I cherish the spacious energy field around you that welcomes all of life, all emotions, the hearts of all beings and the divine. I am inexplicably drawn in to bask in the sweetness of you. I feel compelled by just sitting with you, even in absolute silence, and to feel wisdom emanating from you, gained through love and loss, inquiry, forgiveness, and letting go.

I adore your patience because it slows me down to receive you more fully. The way you move, deliberately, relaxes my nervous system and invites me into my body. Your purpose makes me breathe deeper. Your gentleness shows me everywhere that I am fierce and heals me at the deepest levels. Your undefended heart teaches me the truth of surrender.

I love you with all my heart. I welcome you. I honor you. I bow before you. I long to let go into you, with you, for you as an offering to everything that is sacred. You are a miracle. Let me thank you with everything that I am...

Yours,

Christabel

How to Feel More Love

On a magical evening on the paradise island of Kauai, a group of mermaids sat around a flickering sacred geometric grid, laden with crystals and candles. This was our lucky night! Alaya DeNoyelles, author of the Soverignty of Love, had come to share her insights about Ho’oponopono...this amazing talk lit me up with inspiration. Here are some precious pearls of wisdom shared...

Traditional Ho’oponopono is a life-changing four sentence Hawaiian prayer practice used to bring peace and understanding to family members. It is short, but extremely potent: I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. (You can read all about it and even watch a beautiful video to experience it here.)

Alaya's personal evolution of traditional Ho'oponopono is called the Harmonizing Practice because it is directed internally, towards our own emotions and memories, instead of outward to another person. The Harmonizing Practice is a way of nurturing the pain and suffering within ourselves. It is a way of soothing the pain body, sadness, and all difficult emotions wrapped up in our DNA. This is a way of mothering the children of our emotions so that we can generate more compassion.

The Harmonizing practice has several steps simillar to traditional Ho'oponopono:

1. You thank the difficult emotion or memory for revealing itself to you.

2. Tell the emotion or memory that you love it. (breathing deeply and feeling love helps here)

3. You invite that emotion or memory to come home to your true essence as LOVE.

This could look like saying this internally: "Thank you for showing up and sharing your pain with me" or "thank you for showing up and sharing that memory with me. I love you. Please come home to my heart, my love, the essence of truth of who I AM, the soverign self of love."  

My heart melted when I did this practice for the first time~ it was such a powerful way of "making friends" with the very parts of me that I resisted and judged the most! Welcoming these difficult things and thanking them for showing up and trusting me felt incredibly, well... harmonizing! And taking it to the next level by saying, "Please come home to my acceptance, non-judgement, and love!" was like a bliss bubble surrounding my whole body. Allowing myself to fully experience everything- which is why we are ALIVE- helped me realize that there is nothing to forgive anyways. 

Go ahead... try it now! Think of some challenging situation you have with someone and do the steps. 

In this version of Ho'oponopono, the "please forgive me" is removed. By healing the part of you that thinks it needs to get or give "forgiveness" you let go of needing things need to be different. This is because the judgement in needing to label something as "wrong" creates stuck love. When you accept everyone and yourself as they-you are without resistance, without the need to judge and make anyone wrong, the need for forgiveness falls away!

We all can consciously choose to live in our highest most autonomous state, the highest frequency of union available in this incarnation. This is the frequency of LOVE ~ of the mother tending the child, where the pain and the Presence are one, where the holographic conditioning of mass consciousness and the Divine I AM are one.

This practice allows you space to ask yourself, "what do I want my reality to be?" It encourages the conscious choice to be soft, relaxed and resonant instead of stuck and disharmonius. This enlightenment practice is an invitation to access your superconscious mind. In this place, the union of your pain and presence gives your pure high frequency LOVE, a place where the story is absent.

The miracle is that when we heal a vibration of disharmony within ourselves, we holographically heal all of humanity. When there is a change in "me", there is magically a change in "you"~ because we are all part of the same reality. The Harmonizing Practice is a call to action! It is a gentle invitation to take responsibility and heal what we have to inside on behalf of all humanity. By cleaning up our own dissonant frequencies~ and upleveling it to a higher tone of love, we can entrain others. All you have to do is radiate the harmony of your own consciousness and let go of needing to change anyone or anything. Instead of focusing on someone else, the focus comes back being emotionally self-responsible, transforming accusations into self-inquiry. This means letting go of "either or", and moving into "both and" consciousness. 

There were smiles, tears, and pregnant pauses as we talked about all of this with Alaya. We let it all soak into us while the stars shone, island breezes fluttered prayer flags and candlight flickered.  It felt like we were in a portal~ sharing an experience together that we knew would change our lives forever. Looking back, I feel so juiced up and grateful for the synchronicities which brought Alaya to us. This is truely a magical time to be alive!

My hope for you, my reader, is that you bask in the nectar of LOVE~ loving the whole rainbow of being alive, all your emotions and life experiences ~ transmuting all frquencies so you can radiate your blissful compassion to the whole world!

Love,

Christabel

 

Taking 100% Responsibility for the Paradise Frequency...

Here I am, back on the luscious She-activated, mega Goddess of Kauai. As I've navigated the bliss and the growing opportunities, I remember again and again how important it is for me to take 100% full responsibility for everything I am experiencing. With this in mind... these commitments came to me today on the beach. I hope they can be a source of inspiration for you. Happy Thanksgiving!

I love you,

Christabel

I commit to generating my own bliss!

I commit to fully healing, restoring and replenishing my wellspring of trust in the divine order of the cosmos!

I commit to acknowledging that if it is happening, I chose it and caused it! I can choose anew if my creations are not of the highest state of bliss and euphoric elation.

I commit to living in the Paradise Frequency where I celebrate my juicy aliveness in every moment, being the source of Eden and luscious yum!

I commit to causing relationships with those who are a 100% full YES in their love, acceptance and celebration of who I am!

I commit to causing relationships on purpose, through crystal clear intentions, to magnetize the highest level of grounded, expansive, conscious alignment possible!

I commit to being the source of stability in my life! I claim full 100% full responsibiluty for generating all the peace, health and wealth I need for full liberation, creativity and high-frequency living!

I commit to courageously swinging out of the box and my 3D belief systems in service of expansion into the Fifth Dimensional consciousness of infinite possibilities!

I commit to amplifying my ability to perceive, on a cellular level, the absolute perfection of everything that is happening right now!

I commit to a balance of heartful courage and responsive tenderness~ allowing myself to take healthy risks outside my comfort zone while also honoring the truth of my need to self nurture.

I commit to being here NOW, letting go of the past and the future and celebrating the absolute radiant magic of this moment.

Thank you, thank you, thank you! And so it is. Aloha!

Theta Prayer for Harmonic Alignment with Source Frequency

Mother-Father-God-Goddess, Creator of the starshiny ALL, luscious ascended teachers of light, awakened masters, shimmering light beings of peace~ be here now! It is commanded that every cell of my body is instantly aligned and transformed into a stargate of unity consciousness! May every rotating electron flying around each atom whirl with blissful abandon, knowing I am drop in the ocean of eternal OM!

Tingles of galactic awareness make all the hairs on my arms stand up with rapt attention and awe!

May the luminous shimmer of planets and suns soaring through the skies awaken my DNA to release more latent starbeing ancestry~ more eternalness, wisdom and grace.

May the glimmer in my eyes and the pulse of my heart distribute these qualities ~ high resonance light packets which zip along the gridwork and serve the highest good of all whom surround me.

May the frequency of SOURCE inside every living being around me awaken more compassion, generosity and curiosity about how I can be of service to the evolution of our species.

May the rainbow of color codes within and around me inspire me to craft a vocabulary of light which is grounded, accessible and uplifing, inspiring and cosmic.

May I create playgrounds for humanity to feel more aliveness, connection and love!

May I create supersnuggling events of bliss which accelerate divine downloads, angelic communications and clear, useable guidance.

May my ability to recieve information from shining sacred geometric shapes be amplified a thousand fold so that my nervous system can be upleveled by the crystalline blueprint of MULTIVERSE!

May I become more devoted on a daily basis to living in the Source Frequency of YES, the vibration of OM and the code of YUM!

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

It is done.

Yay!

 

 

 

 

Theta Healing for Owning My Authentic Vocabulary

Creator of All That Is, it is commanded that any false beliefs I have about speaking be pulled, cancelled, cleared and returned to Creator’s Light in the highest and best way, and replaced with God’s Love.

I now understand what it feels like to peacefully speak in my own dialect of BLISS!

I understand what it feels like to joyfully use words which are unusual and outside the status quo.

I understand what it feels like delight in speaking in orginal word combinations.

I understand what it feels like to tickle the Universe by conversing in colorful poetry!

I accept myself and my creative impulses unconditionally!

I give myself plenty of time to play and experiment with words.

I take time to thank Creator for this amazing gift by speaking the words I want to say.

I release all false beliefs which hypnotize me into “playing it safe” while speaking!

I easily dissolve all past and future life vows, commitments, choices and beliefs which do not align with the eternal creative radiance of the I AM!

I am infused with the essence of the ONE and the heart of all humanity!

I lovingly send all false beliefs I've had showers of tender acceptance, forgiveness and letting go.

I am grateful for the spiritual learnings I received from believing in the illusions of limitation~ they all evaporate with a playful "poof!" and infinite abundance is my now!

I know my truest safety lies in being vocal about my 5-Dimensional Reality!

I know my words are magnetic to resonant matches living in the frequency of WONDER!

I know my words are magnetic to rainbow bridge walkers on the life path of EXPANSION!

I know my words are magnetic to those living in the realms of enchantment and AWAKENING!

Creator’s perspective on words is now my perspective!

I feel how the cells in all living beings are listening to, and learning from the words I speak.

I see how I am manifesting a magic reality of quantum possibilties by owning my voice!

I feel how speaking sound packets of light can activate and empower!

I feel how imagery, pitch, tone and speed can illuminate the nervous systems of myself and those around me!

I receive an instant download of mentorship from all the highest, most ascended teachers of Light whom have ever been, in the past or future, on this planet or others, whom have accelerated the spiritual evolution of themselves and others around them by speaking in new, radiant, and expansive ways! My DNA is now encoded with programs which encourage radical authenticity and loving, leading-edge languaging!

My beingness is the ONE.

There is an effervescence of clarity in all the molecules around me.

As I am everything, there is no "nothing", "limitations" or "illusions"

OM! All is Divine!

Thank you, thank you, thank you. It is done!

Theta Healing for Loving the All That Is!

Mother Father God Goddess Creator of all That is!

Archangels, guides, ascended masters, light beings, star ancestors and all legions of light!

Thank you for downloading your infinite perspectives into my DNA!

I feel the extensive stretch of never ending universes in my thoughts.

I feel the galactic vastness of all Godforce across all space and time!

I feel the wisdom of billions ascended species and of trillions of lifetimes of prayer!

I know how it feels to overflow with love for all my emotions and thoughts.

I know how to feel a Divine eternity of tenderness for every thing that is.

I know how it feels to be the source of grace.

I embrace and unconditionally love the ALL of creation!

I welcome in all parts of myself!

I welcome the highest bliss of ecstatic rapture right alongside the deepest terror and fears. 

I welcome in my generosity and my resistance.

I welcome in each nuance of my humanity with the care of Mother Mary.

I know how to transmute all things I misperceive as "negative" into the highest divine nectar!

I know how to align my mind with infinity.

I know how to retrain my instincts to the I AM!

All are welcome in my heart!

My heart is vast!

I surround everything in light!

I am the Central Sun!

I am pure Buddha Nature!

I release dualistic human ideas of right and wrong, good and bad, dark and light!

I release the 3-D concept of polarity, opposites~ that which is to be embraced and that which is to be pushed away.

I release any thoughts, beliefs or sensations which distract me from rejoicing in the now.

I release any cords, relationships, and energetic leaks distracting me from seeing the Beloved in everything.

And so it is!

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

How to Feel All Your Sexual Feelings

Have you ever felt sexual attraction but tried to supress it? What would happen if you didn't? What if you actually allowed yourself to feel the full energy of sexual attraction as fuel for your aliveness? And... what if you told your partner the truth about all your sexual feelings for other people?

This was one of today's topics at the 5 day Conscious Loving Training by the Hendrick's Institute. One participant "admitted" he had sexual feelings for lots of women, but didn't know what to do with them. That's when Katie launched into some basics about human sexuality that we rarely learn in school.

It is healthy to have sexual feelings. Sexual feelings mean we are alive. Sexual feelings mean we have a human body! Sexual feelings are to be celebrated. Sexual feelings are good.

You cause your own sexual feelings. No one "elcits" or "triggers" feelings in you. Your body creates sensations based on it's own internal chemistry, memories and emotions. You are in charge and in control!

Your ability to feel and appreciate sexual feelings for other people is expanded by your ability to enjoy sexual feelings about yourself. By deepening self-love, self-appreciation and a general feeling of personal juiciness, you actually gain more access to life force energy. This awareness heightens your ability to share this energy with others.

Everyone feels sexual feelings and usually for people from both genders. We all feel a variety of physical sensations of arousal from when you are a baby and through old age. Supression of an awareness of this creates dysfunctional behaviors. 

Having sexual feelings for someone else while you are in a relationship is not betrayal. The difference between disloyalty and being alive with sexual feelings is distinguished by acknowledhing feelings versus taking unconscious action. You can create aliveness through agreements to tell your partner the truth of what you are feeling and to hear their truth, and still share an agreement to maintain monogomy. Full disclosure creates integrity.

You can acknowledge sexual feelings by breathing deeply, moving your body to flow them throughout your nervous systerm and loving yourself for feeling sensation. Sexual feelings are an invitation to become embodied! They ask us to stay inside ourselves fully and savor sensation in new ways.

Revealing the truth to your partner about feeling sexual feelings for another can open a resevoir of creative energy to support your relationship. Yes! We often feel sexual energy for those who embody an aspect of aliveness which we yearn for. By connecting to the essence of our yearning and expressing our own aliveness in new ways, we can integrate the attaction.

My invitation to you is to feel more, love more and be honest. You can make love last by being authentic about having sensations. By being honest about feelings and having clear agreements, you can create solid foundations for conscious loving relationships...

My longing for you is that you experience profound love, incredible aliveness, and delicious depths of surrender and connection. Thanks to Katie for an inspiring day of love!

xoxo

Christabel 

 

 

 

 

 

How Transform Your Entire Life with One Commitment

I am ready to commit to living in my zone of genius. My heart is beating fast as I write this. My entire "ego" is about to go. Over time, I have created an identity based on controlling the completion of a massive amount of mundane tasks which don't truely require my participation. They distract me from profound creative urges which lie, latent inside me, begging for expression. What would it be like to truely let go of EVERYTHING except tasks in my realm of genius?

Living in the genius zone means commiting to doing ONLY the work with the highest ratio of abundance and satisfaction generated from the amount of time spent. Even small amounts of time spent doing it create massive personal fulfillment.

Here are just a few of the many distractions which mire my creative flow: Bookeeping, online order management, shipping and distribution, email account management, customer service, vendor management, booking travel, generating and aquiring new products, managing calendars, booking clients...  What do you suck at but persist in doing because it is familiar, you can control it and get the job done?

What would life be like if I was actually invest yourself 100% into your genius realm? Only those things which you do with with passion and inspiration which are olympian in scope? Imagine the surges of joy, creativity and energy available if you were prioritizing your genius...

While I have known about this "genius zone" for years, I have never had the courage to make the BIG LEAP until now. Starting on my upcoming birthday, I commit to living in this zone. A lot needs to change. I'll need to get help. I'll need to break through my habitual patterns of work hours, stratgies and living. It's going to be very uncomfortable. I will likely be scared. I have no idea how to make the transition. But how is irrelevant. Commitment reveals the how.

What activities are you doing which are filling up time and sapping your energy? What creative urges are asking for your time for full expression? What are you willing to let go of controlling to open up to the vast magnitude of inspiration and energy which awaits you? Will you join me in this spectacular challenge. 

Much love from the Hendricks Training in Southern California,

Cristabel

Harbin Hot Springs Invocation

I'm just back from 8 days at the lovely Harbin Hot Springs in Northern California. I am so grateful for this sanctuary! As I went from the blazing hot inner sanctum of the hot springs to the freezing cold plunge, I neared delerium. It was so hot and so cold, the only thing I could do was pray. This picture shows the HEART of the healing property, where the waters cook at 109 degrees. Here are some of the words that echoed through me as I wandered up and down the stairs, through the trees, into the wetness...

May I be purified on all levels, planes and dimensions.

May my body be strong.

May my heart be full of love.

May I expand my ability to receive.

May I give more than I ever thought possible.

May I overfow with generosity.

May I forgive easily.

May my Beloved be divinely protected.

May my family be blessed.

May my friends be graced with ease.

May I remember the reason I am here.

May I do the work I am called to do.

May I learn what I need to learn.

May I clean up every aspect of my life.

May I have the courage to open even more.

May my life have room for more angels.

May I release things that no longer serve.

May I be of the greatest service possible.

May I honor You in everything I do.

May I know how it feels to trust everything.

May I open to bigger miracles.

May I ask for help when I need it.

May I love myself unconditionally.

May I surrender.

May I let go.

May I be.

One.

The Disaster of Being Invincible: A Guide for Alpha Women And Those Who Love Them

There is a new type of warrior in America today: the invincible woman. Invincible women are those who play full out with life. These women have gigantic visions and a relentless drive. These are women who compulsively take on multiple projects. They are perpetually busy. In relationships and at work this is a woman rolls up her sleeves do it all! She often sees herself as being able to do everything faster and better than anyone around her. But there is a particular quality that separates "busy" women from invincible ones~ the latter think they need to do it all by themselves. Invincible women are the one's who say "no" when asked if they would like help. Meanwhile they carry the entire world on their shoulders and run themselves into the ground. I should know! I am a recovering invincible woman.

I speak on behalf of the women who masterfully excel at virtually anything they do. The women manifesting empires while working out, juggling relationships and dozens of other hobbies. I speak on behalf of all women who need to carry in that last grocery bag from the car. I speak on behalf of all women who compulsively exhaust themselves.

I have invincibility in my blood. My mom broke all the rules, eloped in the 60's to marry a black man and travelled the world. She was a woman of "firsts":  the first person in her family to get a college education, all the way through a PhD in Applied Mathematics. She blasted away the glass ceiling at the World Bank as one of the first women in charge of massive projects around the globe. On the side she had two children, divorced in the 70's when it was still a revolutionary act, bought her own home and became a marathon winner. In her free time on the weekends she rolled up her sleeves for home care: climbing ladders, painting, drilling holes, knocking down walls, planting a massive garden, mowing the lawn, chopping firewood, canning tomatoes for incredible traditional Italian meals. At nights and on weekends she spent amazing amounts of time with me and my brother, going to 4-H, horseback riding competitions and has since taken up arc welding, sculpting and orchid cultivation. Growing up with this gutsy role model taught me that being a woman means being fearless and daring while doing it all.

Are you as dazzled as I am by this list of accomplishments? I'm proud to be the daughter of an invincible woman!  She has taught me that anything is possible. Invincible women are superheroines in the US, where the American Dream promises freedom through hard earned success. This mentorship eliminated my self-doubts, allowed me to create idealistic visions and gave me the audacity to tackle the unthinkable and succeed. 

So, given how incredible this all is, what's the problem? The disaster of being an invincible woman is that it can require letting go of  a delicious, relaxed, and inviting feminine energy which allows one to receive. Here is where my own shady past comes in. When a woman wants to be in charge of everything, idolizes achieving, and moves like lightening there isn't a whole lot of space for a man to be a man or for friends to be friends. When I was hard instead of soft and driven instead of relaxed, romance dwindled. When I tried to do it all and stay in charge, I pushed away those who wanted to work or play with me. Here is my confession: I am not strong enough to be invincible. 

Thing is, invincible women often become invincible by letting go of needing. For an invincible women, letting go of needing is powerful. By letting go of the need for rest, nourishment, and support, you express strength.

The dictionary defines invincible as, "too powerful to be defeated or overcome: ie, an invincible warrior."  This is where I get curious. As women, are we at battle? Are women struggling to avoid defeat? What is true power? Is being overcome "bad"? Why are we fighting a battle? And is our life force energy best invested into being warriors? 

So here is the promised guide for alpha women and those who love them.

10 ideas to contemplate and share...

1. Enjoy having needs.

2. Play with asking for help

3. Have fun with surrender. 

4. Dream into resting more.

5. Experiment with letting go.

6. Explore softening as strength.

7. Savor receiving and saying yes.

8. Consider how much less really is.

9. Appreciate how competent everyone is.

10. Wonder about how you can  let others be in charge.

The battle isn't over. While I've apprenticed to those who masterfully nap, cultivate chaos, ask for more and loose control, I still have my moments of invincibility. It is an amazing gift. Invincibility is an invitation to deepen the art of being a woman~ a luscious being who compels through invitation, who leads by feeling more emotion and builds trust through vulnerability. I bless all invincible women, and my hope for us is that we can be truly free.