June 28, 2009

Re-Claiming Divine Feminine Authority

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I've been watching a show called, "The Tudors" on Netflix. I've been adoring the sumptuous gowns, jewels, magestic crowns, gilded jackets and regal attire. But in addition to the eye candy entertainment, i've been intrigued by something further in the show...dynamics between the sexes as represented there. 

In nearly every love/sex/romantic entanglement depicted, a situation occurs where a woman is manipulated in terms of how she serves the desires of a man. Wether she initially had any interest in him or not, it is the man's desire for a woman which determines her response and desire for him.

In response, I have realized that my own attractions have often been often been amplified by the power of a man's attraction towards me. Also, I have historically quelled intuitive guidance in many of my relationships. Instead of validating my own concerns when they went against my partner's perceptions, I have tended to "stuff" my emotions and truth and instead questioned my own self. Another curiosity is how impulsively appealing the alpha male personality is to me, even in it's dominion. What the heck is that all about? This is my current self inquiry and evolution. Needed inner work while reclaiming divine goddess-dom...

June 24, 2009

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June 19, 2009

Identifying My Superpower: Shapeshifting!

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I think about super powers a lot. I think we all have them. Perhaps not as overtly as in the show, Heroes, but in reality, none the less. For some of us, they beam forth bright and obvious. For others, they lie latent, just below the surface and at times aching for emergence.

It has taken me 36 years to realize that my gift is shapeshifting. I am an bio energetic change-agent. I change and transmit CONSTANTLY. Sometimes it is as if I am speeding through multiple lifetimes. Adapting to challenges. Morphing my thoughts to uplevel my vibration under the most trying circumstances. Changing my whole look as I float through specific groups for work or play. It isn't something I have consciously considered until now, actually. But as I write about it, I see more and more how much I have realigned myself as a life practice.

Mastering the art of shapeshifting is vital and juicy for me. I am somewhat obsessed with the transformation and transmutation of energy on emotional (upleveling emotions to joy), mental (changing my thoughts) and physical levels (hooping, raw food, nutrition and dance). It is the invisible thread which unites all my diverse interests. It is that elusive gift I think I may have which I could never quite identify.

I think this is why I feel a surge of passion about performing hooping. A rush which I felt last night while performing at the Hoop Path retreat was the feeling that I could morph my physical and emotional body into a brand new shape, color and tone while dancing. It was almost like turning the dial on some intergalactic antennae. I chose to transmit a specific emotional frequency. What was even more zingy was realizing that the message had been received... at least 5 people said that they cried while I danced. Not that I was trying to transmit a feeling of sadness or grief, but I realized that the "total surrender to what is" which I have been feeling during these great changes in my life, the "letting go" ... that "surrender sense of being achingly alive, coming home to myself and growing", was received. Even though I have had many tears with my own experience of this, the last thing I expected was for some people watching to share that with me! It was like I was really able to share a part of who I am. Neato.

June 16, 2009

Deer Visitation

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This morning as I was walking the Dipsea steps listening to a Solar Radiance meditation, a giant buck jumped across right in front of me! It landed on the other side, scrambled on the rocky, steep slope, and then stopped, turned it's giant antlered head and looked right at me. The antlers looked almost fuzzy and they were massive and it's eyes were so big and dark and glittery. Then it ambled away.

I stood stark still and just stared at it, wondering what message it had for me. Attunement? Gentleness? Innocene? Freshness?

I believe in the value of signs and symbols as they appear in daily life. I trust the Universe to lead and advise me in valuable ways! The meaning of this deer for me, this morning? I think it is time to shower myself in gentle love and allow new adventures! In response to this... I've decided to try at least one new thing every day as far into the future as I can...

Today: I will go to my new local library, get a card and order/check out a book I saw at the airport which looked interesting about networking called, "Never Eat Alone". I will also go to the comedy club next door to my house this evening after doing some laughter yoga exercises here in my apartment for 15 minutes beforehand. 


June 06, 2009

Harmonic Realignment

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What a full moon weekend! I've been feeling surges of energy since Thursday when I noticed moonlight streaming into my livingroom. Lying in the light has felt so replenishing every night, soaking in the coolness and magic. There is some alchemy happening in my body's energy centers ~ lots of movement and clearing and opening.

I've been seeing an amazing chiropractor for the first time in about 6 years~ Jesse Morris. He is much more than just a chiropractor, he is also an energy healer and lightworker and full of presence. I loved how he explained that subluxation meant, "dimmed light", and introduced the concept of adjustments in terms of flooding the body with more life force energy and illumination.

I am amazed at all the realizations I have been having ~ how, over the years, I have stored unspoken words and tension in muscles and bones instead of letting it flow through me. The result is that my scoliosis has been greatly aggravated, with my hips twisting un-naturally to the left and my upper rib cage torquing to the right, winding me up into a helix of sorts. So now, I'm tending to my unwinding...

Last night I downloaded Tina Malia's album, "The Silent Awakening" before attending her live concert. I was absolutely enchanted by the heartfelt soulfulness of so many songs... especially, "Heal This Land". It put me in touch with a part of myself I had not connected to in a long time... a wild, powerful goddess side of me which has felt somewhat bridled over the last years. It was a good rememberance.

Today I'm excited to check out Jaya Lakshmi in concert at the first of the two day Powers of the Sphynx Event. I haven't heard her live since I saw her in the 90's with Lost at Last for a Halloween celebration in Santa Cruz. I remember thinking she was an angel from heaven as she sang and we danced ecstatically... wow! Today should be a wonderful reconnection.

There is this pack of kirtan artists of this variety who seem to come through San Francisco quite often, sharing amazing heart-opening frequencies. While I have listened to them in my car on and off over the years and sung my heart out, I am being called to go to more in person concerts now and bathe my body in the sonic waves...

While I was absorbing the light-filled songs last night, I had this realization that the whole bay area is like a giant burning man event. Every weekend and many weekdays, there are just so many diverse, amazing events going on. Crazy house music parties, inspired kirtan singing, divine dancing, ecstatic movement and visual and sonic arts of all varieties! Again, the last couple years I have primarily "stayed in my own camp" -- attending hooping or electronic house music events, in general. I am loving this blossoming happening now to receive the true abundance which is overflowing here... just allowing myself to migrate to new, inspiring and healing environments as I feel called. I am so lucky to live here! I love living in Marin, and I love the freedom my wonderful car gives me to travel anywhere I please. Thank you!


May 24, 2009

Rampage of Appreciation for Esalen

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I am so grateful for Esalen~ 

I love the abundance of mineral pools overlooking the Pacific Ocean! I love sitting in the water and watching it swirl around me. I love feeling the steam on my face. I love how soft and clear the mineral water makes my skin. I adore the deep, penetrating heat of the water which warms me to the bones and beyond. I love that the water comes up to my neck and completely surrounds me. I love letting my mind wander while inhaling and exhaling. I love imagining while soaking. I love it when poetry magically enters my mind. I love the coolness of the air on my skin while the heat of the water warms my body. I love it when I realize I have been in the water for over an hour and lost all track of time!

I really, really appreciate all the wonderful conversations I have in the tubs. It is so fascinating to meet people from all walks of life, all ages, all backgrounds and hear about their consciousness raising workshops and musings. I appreciate the quiet times when no one speaks and the raucaus times when everyone laughs and talks loudly with excitement.

I love the ocean, dark - almost black in color - rolling in and out in powerful currents. It is amazing to watch the waves crash against rocks andsend spray high into the air. I really feel like I am overlooking a powerful force of nature, an infinite expanse of powerful presence. I love imagining all the life living in the water. I love seeing whales, dolphins and sea lions! It is mesmerizing to observe the flocks of gulls and other birds swooping and soaring and flying in formation. I love looking at the horizon and seeing the clouds in the sky. I love when sunrays appear! I am fed by watching the mountains and cliffs and all the natural beauty of rock formations. It is such a blessing.

I am thankful for the land here. I love thinking of all the leading-edge metaphysicians who have done work and events here, helping to imbue the land with even more resonance. I love thinking of the native people who lived here before and how they lived their lives. I like walking the gardens, drawing in the art barn, sitting on benches overlooking the water, and even reading in bed. I love when I am so tired I just fall asleep and nap for hours.

The food is amazing! I love that so much of it is grown me right before my eyes. It is spectacular to taste such lovingly prepared meals and to savor the unique flavors and textures. It is a delight to meet so manynew friends at the tables and hear such inspiring ideas.

The massages here are amazing as well! I am so grateful for the development of the Esalen style and how much it nourishes my body.

Overall, I love the feeling of being in a sanctuary. I love being held lovingly by the land, water and people. I appreciate that people take time every day here to consciously create a feeling of wellbeing and goodness. I appreciate the art, the resources, the beauty and the love.  Thank you!


May 23, 2009

Affirmations for Alignment!

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* I release everything which cannot keep up with a high vibration reality! Yahoo!

* I allow myself to reside in etheric temples of light and soaring awareness, more and more...

* I tune-up my body temple so it can sing forth with beautiful resonance! 

* I bask in overflowing cosmic possibilities!

* I playfully immerse myself in my passion and my purpose! I love the adventure!

* I bask in sunlight and starlight to awaken cellular resonance.... Yes!

* I align with the purest vision of my self.

* I access and activate a divine cosmic blueprint for my highest potential in this lifetime!

* I welcome a joyul spiritual evolution to unfold through me!

* I know what I am here to contribute to the planet!

* I take time to nourish my imagination through inter-galactic meandering, nature play, dance, beauty and color. I know replenishing my soul in this way will overflow my life force to ultrasonic!

* I prioritize my rejeuvination!

* I take time to speak to my star family about my passions and my purpose.

* I support the soul purpose of others with unconditional love.

* I am the most "me"  can be.

* I live, walk, talk, eat and play in alignment with who I truely am.

* I take time to aquaint myself with my true essence.

* I shower myself with energy-raising gifts often!

* I allow my passions to evolve and change over time to support my expaning consciousness.

* I hone the pure essence of my planetary contribution to the highest octave possible~ the joy frequency of delight!

* I uplift through beauty, joy and love!

* I focus on that which I love in others around me.

* I come together with my soul group to form an incredible team of light!

* I allow myself to gravitate towards the location and community that brings me into the highest level of alignment. It feels amazing!

* I return to childlike innocence, giggles, wonder, awe, joy, play and fun...

Yay! Thank you!

Inspired by my reading of Karen Bishop's "Staying In Alignment".

Inviting the Elfin Download...

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I am blessed! I am spending the weekend at Esalen Institute ~ soaking in hot springs, meditating, sleeping, eating juicy food and wandering through redwoods. Yay! While I was sitting in the mineral tubs overlooking the ocean waves, my imagination ran wild... I felt so nuorished, free and inspired.I felt connected to the essence of the water, my Inner Being and the earth... and the mystical unseen realms of light. This invocation was the result... 

People of the Earth, People of the trees~ those who inhabit the magical ralms of etheric multidimensional awareness~ dwellers within the pure positive light of alignment~  inite your divine download into my DNA!

Let the sensuos nuances of Elf-speak seep into my dialect of delight!

Teach me the silence of Redwood trees, for eons and eons, how to blend my beingness with the bark-covered beings of stability and nurturing groundedness.

Loan me your magic gemstone amulets, enchanted stories, restorative elixers and songspells- chants to shift my awareness to the inifinity of possibilities which surround me.

Invite me to your dolphin tea parties, with clicks and calls our of slick-skinned intergalactic teachers!

Introduce me to all the hummingbirds, whales, otters, deer, mountain lions and hawks...

Shift my eyesight to inisght, seeing the auric fields of light around others with ease.

Give my voice the sonic inflections of the revered teachers of mysteries, the ability to elevate the consciousness in myself and all who surround me with grace and love.

Attune my cells to the super high frequency of enchantment!

Imbue by body temple with resiliance, shimmering beauty and otherworldly grace, carrying the resonance of an Empress of Light!

Clothe me in sparkling robes of ascension, enticing garb which communicates my magical essence, transmitting uplifting and aligning vibration and harmonies.

Cleanse my appetites so that I desire only the most radiant life-enhancing nourishment to replenish my inner vivacious glow.

Bathe me in the slow sauntering ease of regal bearing, at once one with my surroundings and invisible and also beaming as a beacon whenever I desire.

Sweep my mind clear of the mundane human chattering of mortality and stretch my imagination to the unlimited life span of the magic mythic ones- open to stillness, transcendence and starspeak.

Activate mybutterfly wings to unfurl, expand and shine rainbow colors in all their glory!

I celebrate my vibrational Elfin heritage! I soften to recieve, uplevel and imagine...

May 21, 2009

Radical Acceptance of Others!

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I hereby spiritually separate myself from others across space and time, clearing ALL contracts to take on the role of being a spiritual teacher!

I release all compulsion to spend time with those whom I feel should change in any way. I clear the belief that I need to be anyone's guide. I clear the belief that it is my responsibility to change anyone or "fix" them in any way. I release the belief that I "know better" than anyone. I release the belief that I know what would benefit those around me or that it is my role to prescribe change for the improvement of their lives. I release and let go of the belief that my way is the "right" way. Thank you!!!!

I can now consciously choose when to share insights. I do so only when asked, with no obligation and only when those involved are having fun with the process!

I focus a tidal wave of attention on what really matters~ my own growth and expansion! I approach my own life with open curiosity, always asking myself, "how can I have more fun with this?", "how can I feel happy?", "how can I make life easier?", "how can I enjoy this more?", "how can I savor this precious, magical moment more deeply?"

When I do turn my attention to others, I play a fun game of wondering, "what can I find to appreciate about this person?" No matter who they are or what they do, I instantly transform into an appreciation genius and search for signs of their magnificence! Wether it is the color of their shoes, a smile, a tone of voice, I am always on the lookout ~ an expert detective for things to adore. This is my exclusive responsibility to others the planet ~ to become a radical poet recognizing beauty everywhere, in every moment, in every experience, in every person. I hereby replace all contracts of 'being a spiritual wayshower for others' with 'being a blissed out lover of all life!'

Creator shows me how to have luminescently clear communication with all who surround me. I attract equals who shine with the glory of expansion and joy! I  surround myself with those who recognize me for who I really am. I magnetically attract likeminded people who resonate at a frequency of love, fun and joy. This feels so good!

I am anchored in my own high frequency. Creator teaches me what it feels like to truely believe in myself, my path, my vibration and the value of my joy! I can easily connect to others and allow them to be where they are while still radiating light. I tend to my own seeds of light with tender loving care. I implicitly trust myself. I trust my inner guidance. I trust the divine timing. I trust the Universe!

My higher self guides me to my higher level work now! I allow myself to be mystically guided towards a higher level of resonance in physical surroundings, thoughts, community and within my own body. I am feeling better and better as each day passes. I am more and more connected to what matters to me. I am feeling more in touch with my divine life path than ever!

This is fantastic! I am SO grateful! It will be easy for me to remember this now and in all lives across space and time. I have the power to change my life, clear beliefs, download new ones and begin anew.

I begin now!

May 19, 2009

The Radiant Love Tour!!!

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In case you haven't heard, I am embarking on a 15 city tour in June to promote my new book, HOOPING: A Revolutionary Fitness Program and have been thinking very deeply about the essence of what I want to share on this journey. Of course there are the hoops and the dance and the philosophy around this movement practice ~ that is deep material and of course, that is a given. 

But deep contemplation has reminded me that there is a deeper core message I need to share. For me, the hoop has been a remarkable tool to experience radiance, beauty, vitality, health, enthusiasm, and community. THIS is the essence I want to share on the tour and what I have chosen to focus my thoughts on in preparation.

So, I am bubbling over with excitement to announce that I have personally chosen to think of this journey as my RADIANT LOVE TOUR! Yes, that's right! Radiant love, as in shining sunbeams of happy-go-lucky silliness, playfulness and giggly fun! Radiant love, as in divinely delicious dancing, movement and frolicking. Radiant love as in right here, right now ~ blissed out to be alive, jumping up and down with excitement, singing out loud, "I LOVE LIFE!". Radiant love as in the kind that gives tickling  butterflies in the tummy. Radiant love which reminds you of how you feel when all is perfect in the world, you know it and you love it!

Let me tell you about the RADIANT LOVE HOOPING BOOK TOUR...

I see myself radiating the bliss, joy, one-ness and inner peace which hooping brings.
I see millions of people receiving a transmission of undulating joy
I envision media appearences which bring inspiration to exactly those who need it
I see hips swinging, mouths smiling, laughter ringing in the air
I see goodness and healing and flow easing into countless lives
I see delight and appreciation for the gorgoeusness of the book itself
I see the skill level of hoopdance upleveling internationally!
I see younger and younger skilled hoopers teaching the older ones
I see elders whirling and swinging and celebrating their lives in rotation
I envision more and more people gathering in community to learn and teach together
I imagine more people healing themselves, transmuting fear into love and bringing peace
I see a gazillion people feeling magic, excitement and possibility in their lives
I see women coming back into their bodies and owning their bliss
I see teenagers feeling strong, beautiful and capable while twirling
I see stay at home mom's performing hoopdance in the mirror and at family barbeques
I see college students reading the book for their physical education classes
I see people making changes to uplevel their nutrition to include more raw food
I see an incredible lightness of being coming into the lives of many
I envision all ethnicities hooping together, playing like children
I see Michelle Obama, Sasha and Malia bringing me to the White House to teach them to hoop!
I see ALL 50,000 books in the first print selling out and a second print initiating
I see this book tour unleashing wonderful opportunities beyond my wildest dreams!
YAY!